Projection (Male reader x Female OC)

028

Resting on the bed we set up on the floor, Rin propped up a few pillows and ended up laying down to play a game while we just hang out for a moment. Even though I thought that was going to be the case... tonight wasn't going to be just sex.

Which sucks.

Laying on top of her with my head against her chest, our legs tangled together the two of us watch the screen as she plays.

"Never knew you liked watching people play."

"I don't."

"Because..."

I answer her truthfully, "I get either bored or annoyed about it and want to take over because people aren't playing the way I think they should be playing. I have never been a good backseat gamer."

"Hmm. Here I thought you played for your silly little mental health."

I scoff. "Cuddling with you has been doing more for my mental health than games has ever done... Rin I play fucking league of legends regularly while streaming. My mental health is on a rapid decline."

She snorts. "Or  maybe yours is so strong not even League can make you want to kill yourself."

"I'd murder a few people sure, never really wanted to kill myself over that game. Mom has been supportive of me and I had you growing up so I never had that feeling that I wanted it all to end."

She whispers to me. "Well... I wanted to kill myself."

I look up at her with a furrowed brow. "Must have been terrible, waking up like that."

She shakes her head. "I mean... I guess a part of every guy is wondering how it would be if you were a girl. There are some perks but clear things that I do not like at all... the same goes for being a guy."

"But when the body dysmorphia kicked in I was sitting at the edge of my bed every single night wondering if I can ever deal with it," she shuts her eyes, then lifting her hand she runs her fingers through my hair. "If it weren't for you being an inpatient dumbass trying his little heart out to help me, I think I'd have given up back then."

I chuckle slightly. "Sorry... don't know how to say glad you didn't kill yourself without finding it a bit..."

"That's grim, but yeah I get it." She chuckles. "Wouldn't have been able to do it with my best friend that I forced into being my friend in the first place."

I lift my shoulders. "In the long run, it played out perfectly."

She narrows her eyes at me, watching me with an amused stare. "How exactly?"

"I had sex."

"With that best friend."

"You're a girl right now."

She pushes her lips out. "That is neither here nor there, maybe I should have suspected that a part of you was curious about sleeping with me."

"Okay, don't make it weird."

"I'm just saying~" She chirps.

I shake my head, nuzzling my head into her. "Just out of curiosity..."

"No."

"Don't even know what I was going to ask."

"But if it is still on the same subject, no. I don't think of myself as a guy at all because even my tastes in many things changed. Sure someone can argue that I am a guy in a girl's body but we call those tomboys and I heard all the guys love that."

I nod quickly. "Can confirm, they are the best."

"Good to hear, that's pretty much all of the redeeming qualities I have."

I nod. "I mean you are brutish, very outspoken, loud, forward... you are incredibly crass and can be downright nasty if you wanted to be."

"Thanks, babe."

I continue. "But I like that about you."

"You like my worst qualities, do you?" she arches her brow at me.

"I wouldn't say they are your worst."

She twists her lips to the side, "Do we want to unpack that can of worms right now and start complaining about what pisses me off about you?"

"Rather not."

"Good boy."

"So how are my points looking..." I slide into the conversation.

She snorts. "I honestly have not been keeping track but if you are a good boy for the next month or so I might let you try anal because I know I always wanted to try it."

"Wait, are you serious?"

"No, fuck you."

I lift myself over her, "Rin, that's the whole idea behind it."

She snorts. "I was joking, you weirdo." Then furrowing her brow she lifts her legs to her chest and presses her knees against me as if to keep me away. "Come closer and I scream rape as loud as I can."

I recoil at her words. "What happened to calling me baby?"

"Fuck you that's why." She averts her gaze, her face reddens slightly. "Listen... I know you are a bit of a weirdo and you have all these fantasies but some of them are just not going to happen, okay?"

"At least look me in the eye when you say that."

She pans her head to face me. Locking eyes with me. "I am willing to let you get away with a lot of weird shit with me, but not that."

I remark with a smirk. "Look at you being flustered when you were the horny one."

She bites back. "And you had sex once and suddenly you have an ego?"

I furrow my brow. "That one hurts."

"I hope it does, you bastard."

She holds a glare for a moment only for her to slowly smile at me, she drops her legs down allowing me to come closer. Wrapping one arm around my neck while I lower myself back into her she whispers to me.

"Hey..."

"Yeah?"

"I was serious. If there's anything you want to try and experiment with, we can try it. I'll let you get away with almost anything."

Her words make the hairs on the back of my neck stand on end.

We kiss on top of each other. Holding me closely we have completely abandoned whatever the hell we were planning to do while we get some of our energy back. I can't stop thinking about what she said, those words are ringing in my head.

I suddenly pull away. "(Y/N)?"

I gesture to my door. "Want to shower?"

She shakes her head. "Maybe the better question is, what freaky idea just popped into that head of yours that makes you want to lead me into the shower?" she lifts herself to kiss the side of my cheek.

Rin whispers into my ear. "What do plan on doing to me, daddy?"