The Party Scene Saga: Stories Yet To Unfold

Part 10

I waited in the bathroom for half an hour, until the bleeding stopped. Slowly, I unlocked the bathroom door and pulled it open a bit. After making sure no one would see me, I ran over to my bedroom. I ran in, closed the door behind me and slid down it with my eyes shut for a brief moment. I reached forwards to get my jacket from where I left it earlier, but I froze. Four pairs of feet were resting on the floor, with the bodies of the people they belonged to sat on Zack's bed. I finally looked up: Zack, Alex, Rian and Grieco were staring back at me.

"Thought you guys were at practice." I muttered, pulling my jacket on.

"We finished early..." said Zack, a hint of suspicion in his voice. "Why aren't youq with Lee?"

"We...uh...we broke up."

I was half expecting Zack to have the look of disappointment on his face; he just sat there expressionless. It was instead Alex with the disappointment spread across his face. I was fighting so hard to hold back my tears that I started shaking. Rian was the one who came over to me, resting his arm across my shoulders when he'd sat next to me.

"Rian I'm so stupid." I mumbled.

"You're not stupid, you just make stupid decisions." he corrected. "So come on, what happened?"

I sat opening and closing my mouth for around a minute, until I finally managed to properly word what I was going to say. No matter how hard I tried not to cry, the tears still came flooding from my eyes, and I hadn't even said a word yet.

"When I was with Lee today, I remembered everything with Jack." I finally said, earning a sigh from Zack. "I just keep replaying that whole day in my mind and I feel happy again whenever I do. It happened today, when I was with him... something in my head was just screaming at me to end it. So I did it. And now I just...I want Jack. I wanna hold him and call him mine. But he won't speak to me because I'm a fucking asshole."

I barely managed to get two words out without sobbing loudly. I broke down again as soon as I finished, and collapsed into Rian's arms. He held me whilst I cried and sobbed loudly, soaking his t-shirt in snot and tears. I could feel Zack, Grieco and Alex all staring at me the more I sobbed into Rian's chest, so I managed to calm myself down and look over at them. Grieco looked terrified - he'd never seen me like this; Alex was pitying me; Zack was still expressionless. I looked back at Rian, and he smiled at me weakly before going back over to the others.

"Hey guys shouldn't we be going?" Alex suddenly said, not sounding certain.

Grieco and Rian nodded quickly at him. Each of them filed past me as I stood up and away from the door, heads bowed and not looking at me. I heard them saying bye to mum and her fussing over them, then I shut the door. Zack was still sat on his bed, but now with his arms wrapped around his legs as if hugging them. I was going to sit with him, but he looked pretty pissed so I crawled under my duvet and stared at the wall, crying in the hope I'd fall asleep.

{Zack's POV}

Never did I think I'd see my sister turn into a slut. Her eighth boyfriend, and she's dumped him already. I sometimes wonder what goes on in that girl's mind, because she sure as hell isn't thinking straight! She'd crawled into bed after the guys left and lay facing the wall. It broke my heart to know she's still cutting. We've always been so close, and now she can't confide in me about anything, obviously worried I'd tell Jack. Truth be told, I'd never do that to her. In fact, I refused to answer Jack if he asked about her and refused to speak if she was mentioned in conversation. I just wanted my sister back the way she was: happy, full of life and madly in love with one of her best friends.

"Zack! Lily! Dinner's ready!" I heard dad call.

I instantly moved across the room, glancing back at Lily who didn't even flinch. I could just about see the lines left on her face from her tears; she'd obviously cried herself to sleep again...

{Lily's POV}

I heard dad call us for dinner, but I physically couldn't be bothered going. I also heard Zack moving, so I decided to pretend I was asleep. My plan worked, because he left the room and went downstairs. Groggily, I sat up and looked around my room. Every memory of me and Zack came flooding back and I burst into tears; even my own brother is too painful to think about. I had to distance myself from Zack before I got any worse...before I dragged him down with me. I waited a good hour, until I was certain Zack and dad were in the basement and mum was alone. I crept downstairs, and mum's singing as she cleaned the kitchen reached my ears. I walked down the hallway and stood by the door awkwardly, not wanting to disturb her while she was so happy. She was done cleaning and was about to join dad and Zack when she saw me by the door. Mum jumped, obviously not expecting me to be stood there.

"Oh baby you scared me!" she gasped, hurrying over to me and hugging me tightly.

I didn't say anything. I didn't even hug her back. She pulled away slightly and looked at me concerned.

"Honey what's wrong?" she asked softly, rubbing my arms.

"Mom can I have Sam's old room?" I asked bluntly, sniffling slightly.

Her eyes narrowed at me; Zack was so like her in that respect. Reluctantly, she nodded and I walked back upstairs again. Sam was living with friends now, since she decided she wanted to be 'independent' - think Rachel from Friends, y'know when she runs out on her wedding day in the first season and she tells her father she wants independence. Her room was totally empty, and all I had to was take all my stuff down the corridor. I walked into the bedroom and pulled the sheet off my bed. I piled as much stuff as I could onto it, and dragged it down to Sam's old room with the last bit of strength I had left. Around an hour later, what had once been a bedroom that once belonged to the girliest girl on the planet who was obsessed with taking pictures of everything and just art in general was now the bedroom of a girl obsessed with bands and music in general. I had a whole corner empty for my kit to go in once it arrived. Dad got me a custom drum kit from SJC for my sweet 16, and I was beyond excited for it to arrive. The thought of having my own kit made me extremely happy...more happy than I'd been in the last year.