What Are My WordsWorth

49.Make me a poem

Amidst the nights of nimble penning,

Crafting verses, making rhymes,

Maybe all I ever yearned for

Was to be written in these lines.

To be a poem, pure and perfect,

Immortalized in ink and time,

to be a muse poets yearn for,

A precious artpiece of metaphors and rhymes.

as the pages turn and tear

as time erode all else away

i would breathe in dusty pages

in poetry , my silhouette would stay 

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"You said you don't care if you're his girlfriend or not," Divam said in a low voice, his words heavy with meaning. "You're just happy that you get to see him."

"Yeah," I said hesitantly, unsure where he was going with this.

"So, what about when the session ends? When you all change institutes? I'm sure that at least he will," he asked, his voice laced with concern. "What happens then?"

I couldn't give him an answer. I hadn't thought of it. I was just content being around Aadarsh every day, but the thought of us drifting apart had never crossed my mind.

"I...I don't know," I confessed truthfully, feeling a sense of dread wash over me.

"I know you love him but it won't be pleasant when it all ends," he said gently, his words hitting me like a ton of bricks.

"Then, what do you want me to do?" I said in a low tone, my voice barely above a whisper as I tried to swallow down the lump in my throat.

"All I'm saying is...it won't affect him," Divam said gently, his words laced with concern. "He won't miss all these conversations he had in the library with you. He won't miss any of the moments. But you...all of this coming to an end would only hurt you in the end."

I felt a wave of sadness wash over me. He was right. I hated that he was right.

"I don't know what to do," I told him, feeling tears prick at the corners of my eyes. The reality of being away from Aadarsh someday was unbearable.

"That's for you to decide," he said softly, his voice filled with compassion. "I just want the best for you as a friend."

His stop arrived and he left, giving me an assuring smile that did little to ease the ache in my heart.

All these thoughts, these ugly realizations, these terrible truths of a possible tomorrow that I had been trying to ignore now flooded my brain suddenly.

I couldn't sleep that night. I tossed and turned, my mind racing with thoughts and emotions. I accepted my reality in tears. So I made a decision for myself. Between my lovesick devotion, I didn't want to end up destroying myself when he was gone.

The next morning wasn't as pleasant as every other day. I felt heavy and weighed down by my decision. I had decided to ignore Aadarsh as much as I could so that I could finally detach myself from him before we left this institute.

So that I could move forward in my life after leaving. So that I would never look back and miss anything. So that I wouldn't end up being the only one affected in all of this.

But fate, being my eternal enemy, had other plans.