Forever Yours (More Than A Feeling|Sequel)

Two: He's Supposed To Marry You, Not Her

I just stood there in shock, staring back at my nervous brother. Did he just say that Jimmy was getting married? Did I hear him correctly? If I did hear him correctly and I'm not losing my hearing, then I'm in complete disbelief about it. I knew what kind of a reaction Matt was expecting from me, but I wasn't going to give him that reaction. Instead, I forced a smile and said,

"Well that's good for him, I'll have to congratulate him when I see him." I spoke with a light tone. 

Matt looked baffled, and I continued to get another suitcase out of his car. "Wait... what?"

"I'm happy for him. It's good that he's found somebody to spend the rest of his life with." I replied, going back into the house. Matt ran in front of me, blocking the way.

"Ok, wait a minute here. You spent twelve years, totally, completely in love with him, and now when he's marrying somebody else you act like nothing ever happened?" Matt raised an eyebrow at me. I tried not to wince at the totally, completely in love with him part. 

"It's been a year Matt. I got my chance with him, that was what I wanted. I'm over it now, I'm glad he moved on. That was the purpose of leaving." The cold truth in that statement slapped me right across the face. I told him to forget about me and move on, and that's exactly what I got. Goes to show that you need to be careful what you wish for.

Matt put his hand to my forehead like he was checking for a fever. "Are you feeling alright? Do you feel dizzy, or sick at all?"

I rolled my eyes playfully. "I feel fine, Matt. Seriously, I'm happy for him." 

"Mmkay." He didn't sound too convinced. I didn't blame him for not believing me. He was right. I loved the guy for twelve years, it doesn't just disappear just like that. So I guess I did still have feelings for him. 

We got everything in the house, and now it was time for Matt to go home. "Are you sure you're ok?" Matt asked, referring to the news of Jimmy.

I gave him a reassuring smile. "I'm fine. Go home to your baby boy, I'll be over tomorrow to see him." Here I was, telling him I was fine but that was about the biggest lie ever. Really, I'm just dying inside. 

I watched him go and then shut the door, slumping up against it. I slid down all the way until I was sitting, running my fingers through my hair and letting out a sigh. I couldn't believe it. He's getting married. How is this even possible? He said that if I come back, he'd be waiting for me and we'd be together forever. Well, I came back, and we can't be together forever if he's marrying another girl.

Maybe it's just some sick joke. Maybe Matt told Jimmy I was coming back, and he wanted to prank me so he could surprise me or something. Maybe it's not true at all.

Yeah, right, Elise. Matt wouldn't do that to you, and neither would Jimmy. Jimmy might like to play practical jokes on people, but he wouldn't go that far with something like that, given the way things were between us before we left. 

Getting up off the floor, I took some of the boxes of my stuff and started unpacking them to get the thought of Jimmy marrying someone other than myself out of my head. Tomorrow I'd go over to Matt's and meet my nephew, Kyle, and then I'd go straight to Zacky and Grace's house. I needed to talk to Grace and make sure she wasn't holding any grudges against me for leaving. I'll worry about Jimmy later, I have a friendship to try and still save. 

It took me nearly three hours to get everything unpacked and where I wanted it. I would organize and reorganize, Bella watching me with her head cocked to the side. She would often look at me as if to say, 'Just leave things where they are, you're just trying to keep yourself busy so you don't think about Jimmy'. Well, that was the truth, that was exactly what I was doing.