Forever Yours (More Than A Feeling|Sequel)

Ten: Lies And Bullshit

When I got home, after dropping Grace off at Walmart, I went upstairs and flopped on my bed once I let Bella out to the bathroom. Bella came with me, trotting along behind me and jumping up beside me on the bed. I just stared up at the ceiling, wondering how much of my life in the two years has been a lie. I knew I shouldn't believe someone like Aubree, that she was probably fucking with me, but it just made sense in my mind that that had been why Jimmy was distant and we started seeing each other less. But at the same time, Grace seemed right. It didn't sit right with me to think Jimmy would really do that, it just seemed illogical that he would.

I just stayed there like that for an hour or so before I heard Jimmy come home from the studio. I heard the front door open and shut, and I heard him call to me, wondering where I was. Usually I was there to greet him when ever he came back, but this time I was up moping and contemplating the world I've lived in on my bed. 

"Elise?" I heard Jimmy's voice in the hallway, and then he himself appeared in the doorframe. He gave me a funny look as Bella picked up her head to look at him. "What are you doing?"

"Staring at the ceiling and thinking." I muttered, wondering if I was in the presence of a cheater.

"I see." He said, coming into the room further. He walked around the side of the bed and laid down beside me, propping his head up with one arm while he laid on his side and looked at me. "What 'cha thinking about?"

Without being able to stop myself, I blurted, "Did you cheat on me?"

"What?" 

"When we were dating, was the reason that you were so distant because you were cheating?" I rephrased my question.

"Elise, how could you think that? I never cheated on you. Ok, there was that one time at the bar after Henry showed up again, but you already knew about that and I told you how terrible I felt about it, and I never did it again." Jimmy reminded me. 

"How do I know that you're not just covering it up?" I tried not to let my voice crack, but it did once anyway.

"Ok, first of all, who told you that I was cheating on you? Because they're lying, big time." Jimmy asked, but I didn't answer him. "Elise, who said that to you?" He repeated.

I swallowed hard. "Aubree. Aubree told me. I saw her at Walmart today, and she said that she's the girl you slept with at the bar that night, and then you continued to do it later while you were distant towards me. She said, and I quote, 'While he was distant towards you, and pushing you away to the point you'd leave, he was pushing into me'. That's where you met her, at the bar." I turned away from him, on my side.  

Jimmy draped himself over me, to make me look at him. He was practically laying right on top of me. "That is the biggest fucking lie told in the history of lies. Aubree is not even the same girl from the bar, she's just blackmailing you. I don't even know the girl's name from the bar, I haven't seen her since. I never met Aubree until two months after you left, and we met at the beach when I was there with the others. But I never cheated on you purposely, I'd have to kill myself if I did." 

I didn't say anything, forcing myself not to look at him. He studied my face, waiting for some kind of response, but he wasn't getting one. When he realized I wasn't go to say anything, he said,

"Who are you going to believe? Aubree, who's been telling lies since she accused me of cheating. Or me, when I've been by your side since day one, starting way back to when we were kids." 

"I don't know what or who to believe. I don't know what's real and what's not." I replied sullenly.

"Who do you want to believe?" That was a silly question. Of course I wanted to believe him.