Evigilantes

Part 24

Alexander's Pov

As I reach the rocks I sit down on them and bring my knees to my chest and just start drinking from the bottle . Unlocking my phone I  start scrolling trough my gallery and everything was so much easier back then . Sure mom was gone alot but we still had eachoter and I had Fenririt was all I needed . I didn't really have any friends after I graduated high-school I didn't apply to any colleges I wanted to travel and see the world much to mom's displeasure but that's what I wanted. 

It didn't matter anyway the bombs happend before I could start planning my life , all I wanted was to see the world fall in love and start a family just live a simple life . But everything's changed I'm living in this new world,  I've killed people without a second thought , they see me as a leader like how am I supposed to lead these people I barely know how to walk in a straight line .

Taking another sip from the bottle I think about Clarke and Lexa   I'm getting married in 3 days to her and it won't be out of love I did it to save Clarke and her people . Sure Lexa is beautiful and maybe if things where diffrent I could have fallen for her but she doesn't treat me as her equal and took me from my home .

And then there is Clarke she does everything for her people and the first time I met her something just pulled me in, I never wanted to hurt her the way I did she doesn't deserve it . I wish I could show her how much she means to me  but it would only make things worse .

Taking another large sip I look at the ocean and whipe away the tear that fell from my eye .

After 40 minutes of looking at the ocean I slowly stand up and grab the now half empty bottle of vodka as I  start walking back towards the others.  Reaching the group I see Abby give me a sad smile as I walk over and sit down. 

"Bellamy I think you should trow me a bachelor's party " I say with a small  laugh as I think about my wedding that's in three days. 

"Sure Alex "he chuckles and I just give him a shrug . "If the world was still the same we would have gone to a stripclub" I chuckle and I feel Raven trow something at me .

"Why are you throwing stuff at me " I say as I look at her . "Your disgusting" she says before taking a sip from her cup. 

"Do you even know what a stripclub is" I chuckle as I move forward in my chair.  "Well I think I deserve a lapdance  after everything that happend " I state and I see Abby stand up .

"And with that comment I'm going to bed " she says as she gives Clarke a kiss on her forehead and walks towards the house .

"See you scared Abby away " Raven says and me and Bellamy just laugh at the girl .

"Ow come on Raven you gonna tell me you never wanted a guy to give you a lapdance " I state before taking another sip off the bottle in my hand .

"That's something you'll never know Alexander " she says with a raised brow and I just roll my eyes at her .

Seeing Raven stand up she places her cub onto the table and a yawn leaves her mouth . "I'm heading to bed ill see you guys in the morning "

"Don't dream to much about me" I yell as she walks away and all I get in return is her middlefinger. 

And then there where three I think to myself Clarke hasn't really said anything since we left Arkadia . Looking at the girl our eyes meet and she just looks so beautiful right now well she always does but tonight she's just breathtaking.  As our eyes stay connected it seems like time stopped but I'm soon pulled out of my thoughts when I  hear Bellamy clear his troath .

"I'm also heading to bed , ill see you guys in the morning " he says .

"Night " me and Clarke say at the same time and with that there where two ,  connecting my eyes back with Clarke I see her shiver at the evening cold and I slowly walk over to her .