"how come you almost ordered salad?" jimmy asked me.
i shrugged, then felt my phone buzz. it was zach. "couldn't decide, i guess," i answered distractedly as i opened the text.
why the fuck are you with that idiot
you're such a whore
come over here with me and dante, he'll pay for your salad
i hated him. i hated him, i hated him, i hated him. and i've never hated him so much before or after that moment. i left him on read and pocketed my phone.
there was a beat of silence before jimmy suddenly stood up, his face as red as my jacket.
"jimmy, are you okay? your face is really red."
jimmy nodded. "Yeah, I, uh-" he cleared his throat as he sat back down, adjusting his jacket. "i'm fine," he said. "i just, uh..." he trailed off, staring anywhere but at me. "you said you want to be with me," jimmy explained quietly after more silence, and my own face quickly turned red as well.
"don't tell zach," i said quickly. "please, don't tell zach. he'd kill me if he found out, and I already feel horrible for it." He stopped and sighed, glancing at zach and dante again. "we already have enough issues considering cheating, and i hate to make that worse..." i sighed again. "i'm sorry, i've just been ranting this whole time."
"no, it's fine," jimmy said, shaking his head. "you can rant as long as you want. i don't mind."
i stared at Jimmy for a second before nodding, and there was a beat of silence before either of us said anything.
"you and zach have issues with cheating?" jimmy asked.
i looked away. "yeah, but it's nothing really big, or anything," i said. "it only happened a couple of times." it was easier to lie instead of facing how many times he cheated on me with other people. "can we change the subject to something else? i don't really like talking about this."
jimmy nodded. "of course."
we talked about practically everything and nothing after that. just... anything that came to mind. it was nice feeling like i didn't have to put my thoughts through a filter of what i could and couldn't say. it felt freeing. i could just say whatever and i wouldn't be judged.
i loved Jimmy.
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𓈊 Petal's Diary
Fanfiction*COMPLETED* An insider into APBAON!Scott's mind and his side of the story. Please read A Poppy By Any Other Name first before reading this. *** Lowercases are intentional! *** This work belongs to me, @bumblvee, and only me. I reserve the right to...
