𓈊 Petal's Diary

Entry #37

TWs: drunk character, use of the F slur, and sexualising language. Disclaimer, I do not condone the usage of slurs in derogatory ways, even if you can reclaim them.

Stay safe, loves <33

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i never understood how people could fight and still be best friends, like Jimmy and Grian did. they always poked fun at each other and it confused me. whenever joey or dante or cole poked fun at me, it was mean. but when Jimmy or Grian or lizzie did it, there was some kind of weird fondness to it. like it was some kind of inside joke.

i hated that they could do that. i wanted to do that, but everyone always took me seriously and called me jerk for thinking it was a funny joke. it made me feel like there was something wrong with me.

i had gone to the bathroom when zach called me, drunk, asking where i was.

"i'm at a friend's," i said.

"oh yeah? well you don' ge' to have any friendsss, you fucking faggot," he slurred out. "so get your fuckin' ass ov'r here right. now. or else i'mma- i'll fuck you up!"

i jumped slightly when he shouted. "but-"

"i'll fuck you up!" zach shouted again.

i sighed. "i'll come back in the morning, okay?" i promised nervously. "my leg is hurt and i can't walk that far-"

"don't care," zach groaned. "get. here. now."

"zach, i can't-" i paused when it sounded like zach's phone was being moved around a lot, then i was met with joey's voice.

"you fucking little shit," he snarled. "you need to learn your place and listen to your fucking boyfriend, rat." i winced, and he sighed dramatically. "you know, there's this funny story i want to tell you. i saw this chic at the club a little while ago and they looked an awful lot like you. dante even got a picture."

i laughed nervously. "come on, joey," i said. "i don't have red hair. that couldn't have been me."

"i didn't say what colour hair they had."

i froze.

"now, if you don't want me to tell everyone in the school that you're a little whore that likes to sleep with old guys for money, then you'll get to zach's house now."

gulping, i nodded. "r-right, i'm sorry."

joey huffed proudly. "good."

Jimmy stood up when i came out of the bathroom. he came closer to me to offer a hug. "hey, what's wrong?"

i shook my head and wiped at my eyes. "i'm fine. i have to go."

"alright," Jimmy said. "i'll walk you home, then. it isn't far from the school, right?"

"no!" i shouted, making Jimmy flinch. i shook my head. "you don't have to," i said. "i'll, uh... i'll see you later." i pushed past Jimmy and walked briskly out the door.