𓈊 Petal's Diary

Entry #11

believe it or not i used to be really good friends with fwhip. we used to hang out whenever father would let me out of the house, or whenever i was able to sneak out. but since i started dating zach, i stopped having time for fwhip. to be honest, i had forgotten entirely about him until we bumped into each other in the hallway once.

i was more than excited to see him, not caring at all about the mess of books on the floor as i hugged him.

he laughed. "hey, scott," he said, returning my gesture.

"how are you?" i asked, pulling away. i almost felt like kissing him, i missed him so much.

"i'm, uh... i'm alright." he shrugged. he looked away from me and my smile faded. "my mom's having surgery right now."

fwhip's mom had cancer since we were pre-schoolers. it never really got better, but it never got any worse so i guess that's the important part.

"what about you?" he asked me.

i blinked, forgetting that i was in a conversation. "i'm okay. i have a boyfriend now," i mentioned. "his name is zach. he's really good looking, and talented." i felt myself smiling and blushing a bit as i talked about zach. "god, and he's, like, a foot taller than me. well not a foot, he's not that tall. but he is pretty tall. taller than me. maybe half a foot? but that feels too short..." i trailed off when fwhip started snickering. "what?" i looked down at my clothes, then tried fixing my hair. "do i have something on my shirt? is my hair messed up?"

he stopped laughing to give me a weird look. "what? no, you just-" he snorted. "when did you become so insecure, doofus? i was laughing at you ogling over your boyfriend."

i nodded hesitantly. "right," i said with a small laugh. "of course, that was stupid of me. i'm an idiot, sorry-"

"hey, no, it's fine," fwhip said, now looking concerned. "are you okay? you're acting really... weird."

"oh, no, i'm fine," i said quickly. i looked down, then panicked at the mess that i made by running into fwhip. "shit, sorry. i'll clean this up."

fwhip knelt down next to me after i dropped to the floor. i didn't hear what he said, but he lifted his hand and i flitched hard enough to fall back against whoever was behind me, knocking them down.

"you stupid whore!" i heard joey screech behind me. "ugh, what is wrong with you?!" he shoved me onto fwhip. "god, you're so fucking annoying."

i looked up at him and he looked away in disgust, scoffing and walking away.

i was so embarrassed after that, i stopped talking to fwhip altogether. i figured he'd think of me how joey did. stupid and annoying.