Lovely | B.E

S i x t y - s e v e n

A/N: This is a tester chapter so I don't know how it will turn out but its based around Ilomilo. Depending how it turned out maybe i will do more based around other songs to improve the plot.

"Told you not to worry"

I told Reese not to worry but Maybe that was a lie. I knew what I was doing at the time was bad but something inside me couldn't stop myself. Like I had a feeling that she would never leave but I was wrong.

"Honey, what's your hurry"

Thats what Reese had said before one of the nights. All she wanted to do was chill on the sofa and watch movies cuddled up together but I told her that I needed to go to the studio to record knowing she wouldn't second think the excuse. Even though I had barely spent anytime with her she didn't snap, she didn't seem annoyed but in response just asked "Wont you stay inside?"

Everytime we would be away from each other for a couple of days when I would have a week off I would constantly blow her off. She would constantly come to me wondering if she's doing anything wrong and if I was cheating on her to every time I would tell her "They're never gonna give me love like ours"

where did you go? Was the starting question everytime I would be sneaking in at 5am in the morning. Where did I go? To multiple girls house. But the answer was always the studio.

I should know, but its cold  My mom apparently wouldn't let her look for me that night because it was freezing and she didn't want Klara to catch a cold. Maybe if  it wasnt as cold and she did find me I wouldn't have gotten caught. I wouldn't be in this mess and I wouldn't have to live without my future wife.

and i don't wanna be lonely was one of the lasts texts i received from Reese from the night that I met Liv. I didn't read it until the morning. I didn't even see that she had texted me until the morning

so show me the way home i asked her one night last year. She had gone missing to me finding her on a bridge 10 minutes after being told. That night I held her telling her " as long as I'm here no one can hurt you" and "no matter what I'm gonna be here" but what I really was thinking is i cant lose another life

Hurry, I'm worried another text that Reese texted when I hadn't showed up when it had passed midnight.

The worlds a little blurry Or maybe its my eyes she would cry herself to sleep the nights I wasn't there. She knew that something was up, that I was doing something but part of her didn't want to admit it.

The friends I've had to bury. All of my old friends knew of my past. They knew that once I got scared I would go to different people so I would be hurting the person not the other way around.

They keep me up at night Scrolling through my photos seeing how happy they made me just for me to chuck them away and signing a NDA because I didn't want anyone else to find out about my past.

Said i couldn't love someone cause I might break At the start of the relationship I would tell Reese this constantly. Yet she chose to stay and showed me how to love. She always said that I wouldn't break but she didn't realise that I meant turning back to my past

If your gonna die, not by mistake I was gonna eventually hurt her. It was never going to be a mistake.

So, where did you go I texted Reese the night that she left to go back to England without telling me I should know

but its cold she was in a different country thousands of miles away where she use to be in my bed.

i don't wanna be lonely something I use to think crying myself to sleep regretting everything that I did breaking up the relationship.

So tell me you'll come home Even if its just a lie  something I texted Reese repeatedly for days just to be left on read

I tried not to upset you but I knew what I was doing. No matter how many times I told myself I never meant to upset her I knew that I was only thinking of saving myself from falling too deep.

Let you, rescue, me the day i met you the day that she came into our house I knew she was going to rescue you me. It wasn't really physical Eventhough she did multiple times but she also saved me from my depression. Probably the happiest I have ever been.

Reese would always say i just wanted to protect you but now I've ended up falling for you and I had to.

But now ill never get to I'll never be able to return the favor if anything I made it worse

My thoughts constantly turned into the fact that i don't wanna be lonely anymore.

One of the lasts texts shared between me and Reese was me saying Was hoping you'd come home. I don't care if its a lie

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A/n: im probably never gonna do one of these again because it didn't turn out as good as i visioned it to.