𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒, benny rodriguez.

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this week is the last week of the summer, then school will be starting. i'm excited to go to school with all the boys, but i'll miss my friends from my old home. it feels like i haven't spoken to them in years.

life has been great this past month. i met the most amazing person in my life, and made a bunch of friends along the way.

benny cuddled into me, keeping his gaze on the tv. everyday seemed the same, but i didn't really care since i was with him.

i wanted to go out more before school started though. it felt like i barley went out anymore.

"benny?" i spoke, turning my head towards him.

"yeah?"

"can we go out and do something? i'm bored sitting in here everyday" i said.

"sure. what do you wanna do?" he said, turning his body towards me. his hands wrapped around my waist and his eyes stared into mine.

"i dunno, maybe go eat out or something" i suggested. he nodded and got up from the bed.

"well i didn't really mean right now, i was comfortable" i frowned. he chuckled and threw his shirt on.

"well too bad. start getting ready" he said. i groaned and got up from my bed.

benny headed to the bathroom while i sat on my vanity and started my makeup. after i finished i put my hair into a ponytail and added a few clips. i decided to wear jean shorts and a light blue tank top with my converse.

just as i was done benny walked out of the bathroom. "you look beautiful, as always" he said, leaning down and kissing me on the forehead. i smiled at him and grabbed my phone.

"you ready?" he asked.

"yeah. isaac can take us" i said, getting up and heading out of my bedroom. benny followed me as we walked downstairs.

isaac was at the front door, fidgeting with his keys. he looked up as he heard us walk down the stairs.

"you guys ready? i have to be at sierra's in a few so we have to hurry" he said, opening the front door.

"yeah" i replied, following isaac out of the house. we got into his car, me and benny sitting in the back.

"i want aux" i said, connecting my phone to the car. isaac sighed. i played lana for the ride there.

isaac dropped us off at the diner, and the memories of when phillips took me here started flooding in. i still felt bad for what had happened. he showed me he could be a caring person, and i ruined that.

"you okay?" benny said, walking towards the entrance of the diner. i nodded.

he opened the door and we walked in. the familiar scent of food entered my nose.

the waitress sat us down and took our orders. for some reason i had a gut feeling something bad was gonna happen, but i didn't know why.

"ally" benny said, gently touching my head. i snapped out of my thoughts and smiled at him.

"sorry, there's just a lot on my mind" i said.

"like what? talk to me" he said, looking into my eyes. i didn't want to mention phillips because i knew it was wrong. all these years benny spent hating him just for his girlfriend to be friends with him? i would've felt horrible.

"i don't know" i sighed, moving my hands towards my lap. benny stared at me blankly.

"please talk to me" he said quietly.

"it's just a lot has been going on you know? just everything with my mom and stuff" i said.

"yeah i get it. i'll always be here for you ally. i love you" benny smiled.

"thank you, i love you more" i smiled back. after a couple minutes the waitress came with our drinks and our meals.

after we were done eating, we payed and starting heading out. we were gonna walk home since isaac was at sierra's.

"i felt so bored this past week" i told benny.

"yea me too. it's probably because no one's really doing anything anymore since school is starting and stuff" he shrugged.

"yea, but i feel like i don't really have friends who are my age. and that are girls" i said.

"i bet when school starts you'll have plenty. you've only been here for 3 months ally" he said. i didn't even realize i've been here for such a short time. so many things have happened.

"oh yea, i forgot. it feels like i've been here forever" i said. benny nodded.

"let's go to the sandlot?" he asked. it was 6:30, an hour before sunset.

"sure" i smiled. we headed towards the sandlot, since it was only a few blocks away. we entered the downtown area of the city, where a lot of people hung out. i never really been here but i've heard of it.

benny and i walked past this group of teenagers, and one of them called out.

"hey benny!" a girl said, sitting next to her friends on a table. i realized it was that girl i fought on the outside of the diner.

benny ignored her, grabbing my hand and speeding up.

"wait" i stopped him. "i want to see what she wants"

"no, ally. she's just gonna say something stupid" he said, getting frustrated.

"we'll you could leave, im gonna go see what she wants" i said, pulling my hand away from benny's and walking towards the group of teenagers. benny called out for me but i ignored him.

as i approached them, anna scowled at me and rolled her eyes. her friends were whispering and giggling.

"so, what do you want from him" i said, standing a few feet away from her.

"i just wanted to see when he wanted to hang out again" she shrugged. i furrowed my eyebrows.

"again?" i asked. benny had caught up to me.

"yea, benny why don't you tell her?" anna smiled smugly. i turned towards him, crossing my arms.

"what is she talking about?" i asked him.

"it's nothing ally" he said, grabbing my arm. "now let's go"

i pulled away from him. i knew he was lying.

"benny, it's not that hard to tell her we've been seeing eachother" she said.

"seeing eachother?" i said raising my voice.

he wouldn't even look me. i felt the tears swarming in my eyes. i blinked them away.

"your not even gonna explain" i said quietly. he finally looked at me, but his eyes were dark. full of nothing.

i couldn't take it anymore. i quickly walked away as the tears started dripping down my cheeks. i heard benny call my name, but i kept on walking faster. i just wanted to go home.

now i knew why he always acted so strange every time someone would mention her. why he was so angry at me for the whole phillips thing. why she asked where he was at the diner. it all made sense now.

omg. ummm soo.. it's been like a few months😞 mb
there's just like SO much going on in my life but i want to finish this book even tho it actually sucks so bad. lemme update y'all
so i finally have the most loving bf i could ever ask for. i'm literally so happy??? also i'm staring SOPHOMORE year??? that's so crazy guys what the frick i literally started writing this when i started my freshman year and it's still not done😭 i actually need to get this finished ASAP
okayy byeeeee i love you guys! also omg 3k reads???!????? literally i love every single one of you so much <3