I feel like i've lost years i haven't lived-September

Not Y'all's Fault

The girl buried her face into Phil's side. She didn't cry anymore though, she just hid herself from anyone who could see her. After a few minutes she pulled her face up and wiped her eyes. They were puffy and red and they would probably hurt tomorrow from so much crying.

"Hey kiddo, you back with us now?"

Carson nodded slightly but still kept a tight hold on Phil.

"You want to go back inside?"

She shook her head

"Do you want them to come out here?"

Carson started to talk but her voice was far too raspy to understand. She cleared her throat and tried again.

"Jus-just Niki please."

"You don't want Tommy?"

Techno asked with more confusion then anything

"No. Let him hang out with his friends."

That she said very clearly. Techno nodded his head and went inside to retrieve Niki while Phil stayed with Carson sitting on the swing.

It was only seconds later that a very concerned Niki came rushing out of the house. She very quickly bent down in front of the girl and started asking what was wrong.

"Just bad memories?"

"Mhmm"

Carson spoke quietly, her throat raw from gasping for breath for such a long period of time.

"Thats okay darling, do you wanna tell us about it?"

This made the girl very quickly shake her head no. She didn't want to relive all that again so soon.

"Thats okay too. Do you want to start a fire hun? Maybe roast some marshmallows before dinner?"

Carson cleared her throat again so she could be heard properly

"Tommy would like that."

"Hunny this is to make you feel better, do you want to do it?"

She nodded her head

"Tommy makes me feel better."

Any type of emotion the three people were pushing down could no longer be suppressed as they all started smiling heavily at the statement. Tommy was easily Carson's best friend, even if neither of them said it.

Techno set to work starting a fire and Phil went inside to get some marshmallows and tell everyone about whats going on outside. Niki decided to just stay with Carson while the girl calmed down fully.

When Phil came back out he had both marshmallows and a bottle of water for Carson, which she gulped down fairly fast. The back door slide open and Tommy, Tubbo, and Ranboo quickly came out. Schlatt, Fundy, Sam, and Wilbur were still inside, more so waiting for permission to come out then anything. But when Carson looked up and didn't see the four outside she looked at Phil and asked where they were.

"They wanted to stay inside until they knew you were okay."

Carson nodded

"Im okay."

Phil looked at the door and motioned for the boys to come out, however they still hesitated. That was until Carson stood up and walked over to the door, opening it and pulling Wilbur outside, causing the other three boys to follow them.

Carson briefly hugged Wilbur whispering to him

"Its not y'all's fault."

The boy nodded his head and Carson went to sit back down. Now that everyone was outside the girl felt content. It wasn't anyone's fault that this happened to her. No one here could stop the past, all you can do is prevent it from happening again.