I feel like i've lost years i haven't lived-September

New Explanations For Old Problems

The panic was immediately seen on Carson's face by Phil. He quickly muted and started to calm the girl.

"Hey, bub calm down. Its okay, we can just say we adopted out of country or something."

Carson was digging her nails into her hands when Phil very lightly grabbed her fists and pulled them apart so that she didn't draw blood.

"No dad that won't work. They'll find out about Jacob and then they'll just think I'm gross and damaged an-"

"You are not gross or damaged Carson."

Phil cut Carson off before she could continue to say anything more

"The things that happened to you were not your fault and they will not think any less of you because of what those horrible people did to you. Just take a deep breath."

Carson nodded her head very lightly and held onto Phils arm like a scared toddler.

Many times Phil found Carson acting more like a young kid then a twelve year old girl. He never minded though, Carson never had a good childhood. She had went through so much despair and it was easy to see that she was still just a terrified child.

"What do you want me to tell them?"

Carson was quiet for a few minutes and then looked at Phil. She wasn't even ashamed of the things that happened to her. They weren't her fault. But at the same time what was she supposed to feel? Carson didn't exactly know. Sometimes she was ashamed, but normally she didn't care. Just like she always told Phil, its just life. Doesn't make anything easier or harder, it makes it completely up to fate. And the thing about fate is that its not always a good thing.

She looked at Phil and then back at the screen. They're gonna know whatever excuse they make up is a lie. Might as well just tell the truth, right?

"The truth i guess."

Phil stared for a second, waiting incase Carson changed her mind. But when the girl just stared back, Phil decided to speak again.

"How much of the truth?"

"I suppose as much as they ask for."

The man nodded his head and quickly told Carson, who was still hanging onto his arm, to squeeze if she wanted him to stop.

He then unmuted on discord and started to explain, well somewhat explain.

"Its a very.. well. Graphic explanation. Are you three sure you want to hear it?"

The three males all said some variation of yes, Phil looked at Carson and she nodded so he continued to explain.

"Carson used to be in the United States when she was younger. In fact she has dual citizenship in the US and UK. When she was ten her foster parents put her on a plane and sent her to a man here."

That was when Dream interjected

"Wait, wait, wait, thats like.. really illegal."

Phil once again looked at Carson to make sure it was okay he continued. The girl just nodded her head.

"Yes, Dream it is illegal. She was.."

The man hesitated for a long time until Carson finished the sentence for him.

"Sold. I was sold to the man."

There was a few shocked gasps from the people on call, even Phil looked at the girl a little surprised at how monotone she had said that. But Carson just shrugged and waited for Phil to keep talking. However instead it was Quackity who started talking.

"So like.. you were ten?"

Carson decided to just start answering the questions instead of letting Phil do it for her. Considering the man was very concerned he was saying stuff that Carson wasn't comfortable with.

"Yeah. I was."

"But like- then what did they.. do to you?"

George hesitantly asked the girl. Afraid that he was asking something inappropriate. Everyone knew the answer to the question, but at the same time everyone wanted it to be a different one.

Carson looked at Phil, she didn't know if she was supposed to say this.

"Am i allowed to say?"

The girl virtually whispered so that the others didn't hear her

"If you want to."

Phil replied back just as quietly as Carson.

Carson looked back at the screen and scanned over the three other names in the call. Everyone was silent, waiting for a response from the girl. Carson took a deep breath and decided to answer.

"Sex."

That was all Carson needed to say for audible shock to be heard across the call. The girl looked at Phil to make sure she didn't do something wrong but he just nodded his head to confirm she did nothing wrong.

"I was a sex slave."

She clarified, realizing that just saying the word 'sex' was pretty ambiguous

"Thats why i'm in the UK. I'm not supposed to go back to the US for at least a couple years. The government's worked together to give me Citizenship in the UK so that i would be able to stay here."

Quackity asked another question. It was sort of fascinating to him since he was studying law but he hoped he wasn't crossing boundaries with the small girl he had just met a few days ago.

"So why aren't you supposed to be in the US for a few years?"

Carson sighed slightly, she wasn't annoyed at the question. It was just a very long explanation and stream was starting in ten minutes.

"Some old foster families and John's mom is still looking for me. Its safer if i stay here."

Phil jumped in to answer before its asked

"John is her birth father."

"Don't call him that."

Carson said very seriously. To which Phil apologized and explained they didn't know who John was. The girl nodded her head and quickly said that she could answer more questions when they stopped streaming. Quackity apologized and explained he's just a bit fascinated because he's studying law but Carson didn't mind. She understood being curious. But the girl could only imagine how he would react when he knew she was one of the highest profile sex trafficking cases in the world right now.