Growing Up Gay

Wizz Ch. 22

So remember when I said I can't even be a whore? So Ima get into that now. I don't know if anyone has heard of the app Wizz but it's original purpose was to connect teens so that they can make friends. Oh and by the way these people can be from other states or even other countries. But what the app is actually used for is teenage tinder and drug selling. I don't recommend the app at all.
       Sure I've had guys in my dms telling me im pretty but they were ugly or just wanted to trade nudes. Anyways I'm going to talk about my experience on the app. I'm also gonna talk about some of the guys that I liked on Wizz. All of them could have been more. To be honest most of them still talk to me and wish to meet up but not be bfs but to rail me.
      Now lets get to the juicy part first. So when actually hot guys came knocking on my dms I did loose some of my morals. Honestly it wasn't worth it cause I'd do things for them but a day later I'd find out that they just used me as their own free trial of onlyfans and that they blocked me.
Now let's talk about some guys that I've talked to for longer than a day. So Henry is one of the guy's I meet on the app. So here's red flag number 1 about him, he's a furry. Red flag number 2 is that he didn't show his face. Red flag number 3 he's a freshman in NEBRASKA.
But to be honest I kept him around only because I was lonely and he gave me princess treatment and I liked the attention. Like he would constantly call me pretty and say that I was cute.
The next guy is named Caden he's this gym rat that started talking to me. He said I was cute and he told me he had a soft spot for femboys. Apparently I fit that bill and he talked to me for awhile till he randomly ghosted me.
I thought this one guy was different his name was Gabe. He didn't ask for anything weird and he would say good morning and good night to me. We chatted for while and he said I was so pretty he could prey to me. But nothing ever lasts and he ended up asking for some content and I said no. After that he ghosted me and stopped his good morning messages.
I really don't understand the guys on this damn app. Some will talk to me and chat with me for awhile then will randomly ghost me. While others just ask for nudes like the hub and twitter don't exist.
       I might actually give up at this point. I don't understand how people are dating in high school. I've tried everything asking out guys I found interest in at school, dating apps, going to parties and I even tried waiting for someone to fall into my lap. But still nothing. What am I missing? Am I just not enough?
No that can't be it because I attracted other guys from miles away but still no boyfriend and no one asking me to homecoming. Maybe life would have been more simple if I was just straight. Their life is so much easier. Not having to worry about rights taken away or about being bullied for who you like.
I'm just so done. I really don't have any effort left in me anymore. All I can do is focus on my grades and hoping someone will come eventually.