It has been 3 months since Neyetam died I have been broken since mom cries everyday dad has been frozen lo'ak blames himself kiri been quiet tuk is just sad she is to young to fully understand I refused to go to my brother funeral I wasn't ready I'm still not ready to fully except he is gone sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and just except him to be there
In my family I am holding up the best a couple weeks ago I packed all of neyetam stuff
I keep most of it in my room Aonung has been around a lot it's like he is waiting for me to snap which I have not done since first finding out I cried for hours in my mother arms
"Hey sylwanin"said Aonung it was early in the morning I was sat on the in the sand running the water through my finger
"hi"I say forcing a smile
"Don't do that"he said sitting on the sand next to me
"Do what"
"Fake put up a shield try and hide your pain"
"I'm not in pain"I say not meaning it at all
"You are you lost the boy thats been there since birth whenever something happened he would pick you up your best friends your brother and now you felt as if you have lost your family look I love you so much you are amazing woman trying to do all this but you don't have to do it alone let me help you let roxto help you let Tsireya help you"
"I don't want help"I say looking at him
"You may not want it but you need it now you can do whatever you want sit here in silence yell scream cry just don't hide
I feel tears in my eyes then just fall into aonung arms he holds me close as I sob
"It's not fear I should have protected him all of them"
"You couldn't have nothing"
"I should have he told me to go that he would be safe he wasn't"
"I know you aren't to blame"
"Why did you stay I pushed you away and you stayed"
"Cause you needed me I wouldn't never abandon you"
"Thank you"
"What do you want to do know"
"Nothing absolutely nothing"
"Ok"said aonung as he run his hand through my hair
"I love you to"I say looking at him
"I love you to"he said pursuing his lips to mine
"Please stop acting like I am about to snap"
"I'm not"
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The second slywanin
FanfictionAfter being abandoned with Jake and Neytiri by her birth family at a month old this beautiful little girls had nothing not even a name so Jake and and neytiri brought her up along side there first son netetam raising them as twins naming her slywain...
