Love, Hate and Death (Light Yagami x Reader)

CH 24 KIRA

"Hey, I'm home" I greeted Light as I closed my apartment door behind me. I noticed the empty living room so I quickly assumed that he was in my bedroom. Every time I don't spot him immediately, my heart beats a little faster and my palms start to sweat. 

"Light?" I called out in a low voice, just in case he was sleeping. As I walked into my room, there I saw Light breathing heavily, tightly clutching his hair and groaning. "Light.. did you have a memory flashback just now?" I quickly ran to him, dropping my things on the carpeted floor. 

"I.. I remembered something about me" He was panting, his neck covered in sweat. "I don't believe it though.." He turned to look at me, his eyes were covered in fear. He had an expression that I have never seen before, he seemed genuinely terrified.

"What..? what was it, tell me, Light" I sat beside him on my bed, closely monitoring his breathing and appearance. His fever hasn't gone down one bit and he looks even worse in this state especially now that he's having flashbacks and they don't exactly feel great at all. 

"U-ugh.. it was- agh.." He brought his hands to his face as he groaned from the migraine it left him. "It was crazy, I don't even know if I should tell you.." He expressed in a sullen tone, not making eye contact. 

"All the more reason to tell me, you know I would understand it, right?" 

"I do.. I'm not concerned whether you would understand it or not, I'm just afraid that.. you would start to look at me differently if I told you about this" He sighed, his face still buried in his palms. 

"Light" I gently cupped his cheeks to make him face me, his skin was hot and tears were forming in his eyes due to his high temperature and current emotional state. "The moment I brought you here, I already considered the fact that I might somehow get involved with whatever you pursue so whatever it is that you have to tell me, it's nothing I can't handle" I gave him a warm smile, bringing his face to my chest and hugging him as gently as I could. 

"Alright. But this doesn't leave the room" He firmly instructed, holding my hands and looking straight into my eyes. "I saw myself using the death note.. with my own fingers, I was writing the names of criminals and, I don't know.. it was really short but it just seemed unbelievable" 

...

"I knew it, you can't even speak. If you're suspecting me of being kira, I assure you.." He sighs before continuing. "Actually, I'm not even sure at this point. I want to be able to confidently tell you that I am not kira but, I can't even explain what I saw" Light waited for me to react. "but we don't know for sure if I am, all I saw was a glimpse so it was probably just a fluke.." He nervously added. 

Light..

To think that my suspicions from early on was actually not just silly worries and results of my excessive overthinking. He might actually be kira and here I am, abetting and aiding him. 

This is insane, I thought I was going to be strong enough for anything but this is clearly more than I expected. Sure, I thought about it a few times but honestly, I didn't think it was possible for Light to be kira, it just didn't add up at all.

"You're overthinking again, aren't you?.. I get it, even if you truly care about me, this kind of news isn't something a regular person can tak-" I hugged Light before he could finish that thought. I know he meant well but I didn't like the way he differentiated me from him, calling me a regular person. 

Being with him was risky, I knew that from the get-go. Maybe I'd have to adjust a little after this revelation but leaving him is out of the question. 

"No.. I was just shocked, that's all" I muffled as I rest my head on his shoulder as we hugged. He froze for a second after hearing my response but he sighs in relief and slowly wrapped his arms around me.

"Really..? Because you already know that you're all I have, right?" Light looked at me with a genuine expression, his eyes full of affection. 

There it is again, that immense dependence on me. He knows exactly what he wants and how he's going to be able to achieve it. He is aware of the huge responsibility I feel to look after him and care for him, the vulnerability he shows is his weapon and he's great at using it. 

"I know, I know" 

And, I have no complaints.