I have one concrete fear at the moment..
I fear that if Light fully recovers his memories, he would completely change. A total shift of personality. All he saw was a glimpse of who he used to be but he's acting as if it was made for him, a purpose given to him.
I just hope when that time comes..
"Light, it's time to change your bandage"
his feelings won't change.
"This is surely taking a long time to heal. It barely even hurts anymore" Light murmurs as I gently tend to his wound.
"Well, the bullet did go right through you. You should be thankful that you're alive and well" I rolled my eyes, smiling at him.
"Except for the fact that my brain couldn't handle a little conk on the head and forgot the most crucial things I needed to remember"
"Don't you blame your head for that, idiot! Your healing process is actually impressive, plus, you shouldn't hurry so much. You just went through a near-death experience, take it slow"
I guess that advice was a little bit selfish.. Is it bad that I don't want you to remember everything?
"..Okay, I will. If there's one person I'm willing to listen to, it's you" He smirked, gazing at my eyes as he kept his hand on mine.
"Oh, stop" I quietly chuckled without showing him right before clearing my throat and straightening my posture. "Don't move so much, I can't wrap it properly around your shoulder"
"..y/n, are you really willing to do something just for me? You realize that the next step is to convince Doc to invite you to his house"
"Well.." I brought my hands to my face and sighed. "I know. But does it matter? I know getting the notebook matters a lot to you"
"Sure but your safety obviously comes first. Do you really think of me as an evil guy who takes advantage of others?" He looks at me with a slight agitated expression.
"N-no.. it's not like that" I stuttered, avoiding eye contact with him.
"I got to say, that kind of hurts me a bit; that you would think I am willing to put you in danger just to get what I want" He says bluntly.
"but you haven't even recovered most of your memories so I don't think you have any grounds to say that. You probably don't remember how you were so you can't be sure"
Oh no.. was that too far?
"What..? Do you actually believe that I'm loathsome just as you described?"
"I mean.. um, it's just.." I sighed once again, getting up from my seat.
"You feel anxious, don't you? That I would forget you or toss you aside the moment I remember everything" Light asks after grabbing my hand to stop me from walking away.
"what are you talking about, no, I don't. I'm just your nurse so why would I feel that way-" He stands up and kisses me, interrupting the lie I was forming.
"Even if I remember everything, I would never abandon you.." He smiles as we kiss. "If you don't believe me then you can turn me in"
"What?" My eyes widen and my expression turned confused.
"Yes, it's my way of saying that I am 100% sure I won't feel any different even if I fully heal. You were there when I was no one so I'll be with you whatever happens" He smiles and pulls me into a hug. "You understand what I'm saying, right? So don't be anxious"
...
Oh, Light.. The more you treat me this way, I won't be able to recover from you.
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Love, Hate and Death (Light Yagami x Reader)
RomansaYou've always hated the atmosphere and ambience of hospitals which was ironic since you have worked as a nurse for several years. It was difficult, coming to work every day and witnessing death's dance at every corner until you met him; a narcissist...
