Love, Hate and Death (Light Yagami x Reader)

CH 26 DOC DAIKI

The name "kira" kept repeating in my head, echoing. My vision was blurry and I was simply out of it. It was a usual occurrence that I would space out during work but this was highly different.

The man I like is Kira; the serial killer who murders criminals to create a better world. 

I may put on a brave act in front of Light but I can't lie that it bothers me. No, it petrifies me. I've never really cared about kira, his objectives and ideals but the fact that it has something to do with Light..

I just can't seem to wrap my head around it. 

"We still haven't found Light..the police are really losing their heads over this. Imagine what it's like for us doctors who were responsible" Doc Daiki sighs as he sat down on the stool beside me. "You're spacing out more frequently. I'm just surprised you haven't broken down after all that" He says, his head laid back as he stares into the ceiling. 

I would have if he actually went missing.

"Well.. I'm handling it better than I thought I would. I just kept hoping that the detectives will find him soon" I replied, forcing a smile. 

"I already knew my brother was a bit of a bastard but..I actually doubt that he would do something as vile as kidnapping. The act of threatening someone's life to gain something is low, even for him" He nervously says. 

Huh, it's weird how he contradicted himself just now. When we saw the footage, he didn't hesitate to immediately arrest his brother, what could have changed his mind for him to defend his brother like this? 

"Why are you in such bad terms, if you don't mind me asking..did he really do something so horrible that you can't even say his name?" I chuckled quietly. I realized that all this time, he never mentioned his brother's name once, he would always refer to him as his brother which was ironic because he was "dead" to him. 

"I'm really not in the mood to talk about that jerk, I never am. But maybe you noticed that I'm oversharing a little more today than usual.. might as well tell you" He sighs, deeply again whilst staring at the wall. He had a familiar hopeless expression painted on his face whenever something goes inevitably wrong in the hospital and he can't really do anything about it. "He stole something from me, money, lots of it then he disappeared, leaving me with nothing. I was able to accept it; I told myself countless times that maybe, he had a good reason. And then I found out that he gambled all of it, my life's income and hard work all to a random casino I've never even heard of before. It was unforgivable" 

...

"That really sucks. Seeing him in the hospital must've really triggered you" I responded as I looked at him, analyzing his emotions. 

Light told me that Doc Daiki might have the notebook, but he's just not aware of it. Maybe If I pry a little more, he can tell me something that could lead us right to it. 

"I don't exactly know how you feel but I'm sure that a little part of you still cares for him, he's your brother after all.." I softly spoke, trying to comfort him. 

"I do and I hate it. I hate that even when he would drag me through the dirt countless times, I would still try and come up with excuses for his behavior" He murmured before getting up from his seat and facing me. "Sorry for babbling on and on, I guess it really took a toll on me, all of this.. I better get back to work" He worked up a smile that did not reach his eyes. 

"Ah, it's nothing, I hope you feel better soon, sir" I nodded and put on a reassuring smile. 

I'm not entirely sure if the information I acquired is helpful but Light will surely make something out of it, he always does; he's an incredible genius who never fails to impress me. 

It intrigues me even more that his brain seems to function well in terms of logical planning  despite being an amnesiac.. It makes me wonder if he has used his talent and skills when he was kira as a way to punish criminals, deceiving the police and successfully getting his way.

Am I really just going to blindly accept that?