As Cold as the Night

Chapter 38

Chapter 38
"Guilty"

"Ham?" I called longingly.

"We both know this is something else," nanghihina niya ring sambit.

"Hindi mo ba ako mahal na ayaw mo no'n?" nasasaktan kong sabi.

Umigting ang panga niya. He gritted his teeth twice. Mabibigat ang paghinga niya. Ramdam ko iyon dahil sa pagkakadikit namin.

"I love you enough to wait till I bring you in front of the altar..."

Napakurap kurap ako.

Nagtagis lalo ang panga niya. His gorgeous face contorted as he fought something inside of him.

"But I ain't holy... My thoughts of you aren't always innocent and pure."

"Please? G-Gusto ko," mabigat ang hininga kong sinabi.

"Why?"

"I wanna see you doing it... I'm scared I might miss your face... if... if there's no longer an escape from losing my sight." I almost tear up.

Kumunot ang noo niya. Umawang ang namumula niyang mga labi. Mataman niya akong sinukat ng mga titig niya.

"Ham, please?"

"Don't beg," he leered.

"But you don't want to."

"Like I said, I'm no holy... My thoughts are wild. I-I might forget and lose control... masasaktan kita," halos pagalitan niya ako.

"G-Ga'no ba kasakit?"

"I have no fucking answer to that."

"K-Kaya ko... Kakayanin ko."

"Pollana Kassandrei," nauubos ang pasensya niyang bigkas sa pangalan ko. It's the first time that he uttered my whole name, that I was-for a moment-fazed how it so sound so beautiful just because it slipped from his lips.

"Hamlet Rurik Montalba... I want you... I need you. Now..." my determined voice sounds like from someone else, malayo sa malamya at malambing kong boses.

Sa isang marahas na kilos, nagawa niya akong ihiga. Itinukod niya ang isang kamay sa gilid ng aking ulo kasabay ng pagbaba ng mukha niya. Hawak ng isang kamay niya ang likod ng leeg ko. He pushed my head up, bumabaon ang mga daliri niya sa mga hibla ng buhok ko. Tuluyan siyang mas yumuko. With raw hunger that knew no bounds, his swollen lips fervently melded together, caging my tender lips. I was instantly caught in a passionate frenzy, nagliliyab at nantutupok. Pero iyon ang gusto ko.

I voluntarily open my mouth for his invasive tongue. It tugged mine, played with it and then proceeded on exploring what's in there. Bumaba ang kamay niya sa dibdib ko. I shivered when he passed through my top and found my aching buds. Kanina pa iyon gano'n. He pressed it, played it with his fingers. It aches more at his touch.

I moan and groan sa hindi inaasahang pakiramdam na dala ng ginagawa niya. Kalaunan, he pressed his palm on my chest. Tumigil siya sa paghalik. Nanatiling nakadikit sa'kin ang mga labi niya hanggang sa lumayo siya konti. My wondering eyes are asking why he'd stopped.

"Wala akong mahawakan," he murmured, it was accompanied by a slow chuckle.

"Ham!"

Sa nanghihinang kamay, tinulak ko ang dibdib niya.

"M-Malaki lang ang kamay mo." Heat burned my face. I looked away.

"Uh-huh? Hmm..."

I think I'm about to cry. I hit his chest again and rose. Itinulak ko pa ulit siya para makalayo pero hinuli niya ang kamay ko. Dinampian niya ng halik, pagkatapos binaba ang kamay ko.