Hang Up [Unedited]

xlv

10 September, 2014. 3:10pm.

To: Jewel

Are you okay?

From: Jewel

Don't I usually ask you that?

To: Jewel

It's not a contest, are you okay?

From: Jewel

No, but I'll be fine.

To: Jewel

Do you want to talk about it?

From: Jewel

There's nothing to talk about.

To: Jewel

Yes there is, especially if you're upset because of something I did.

From: Jewel

That's just it, it's not anything you did. I'm just not okay and it seems I haven't been for a while, I just don't understand how or why.

To: Jewel

Will you call me, now?

From: Jewel

No.

To: Jewel

Why not?

From: Jewel

Because I don't want you to hear me cry.

To: Jewel

Baby, please don't cry.

From: Jewel

It's not like I can help it. I'm literally crying for no reason, and now I'm laughing like a maniac just thinking about it.

To: Jewel

I'm coming over, don't even  try to stop me.

From: Jewel

Please don't, I really don't want you to see me like this. I'm a mess right now.

To: Jewel

So I'm bringing a fuzzy blanket, two rom-coms, a scary movie, popcorn, and tissue. Did I forget anything?

From: Jewel

Chocolate, lots of it, and cookies and cream ice cream.

To: Jewel

Are you still crying?

From: Jewel

Yea but not as much as before.

To: Jewel

I want you to be okay, alright? Haven't I told you that before?

From: Jewel

You have, I'm just really bad at listening to instructions.

To: Jewel

There's a smile on the other side of this phone I can't wait to see.

From: Jewel

Andrew I have a question.

To: Jewel

Ask me anything.

From: Jewel

Will you hold me?

To: Jewel

For as long as you need me to.

From: Jewel

All night?

To: Jewel

Forever and a day.

From: Jewel

I'm glad I have you.

To: Jewel

I wish I could say the same about you.

From: Jewel

What do you mean?

To: Jewel

Forget about it. Hey, I'll be there soon okay, I'm just going to stop at the store quickly.

From: Jewel

Do you believe in happy ever afters?

To: Jewel

Ask me again when I see you.

From: Jewel

Ok.

To: Jewel

Do me a favor?

From: Jewel

Anything.

To: Jewel

Promise you won't ever hurt yourself.

From: Jewel

Why?

To: Jewel

Just promise me?

From: Jewel

No, I can't make that promise.

To: Jewel

Why not?

From: Jewel

Because it's one I can't keep.

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