Pearl (on hold)

Chapter 14

"Adal Ahmad Omar "

I stared at him unblinkingly ...wait a second .....all this while i have been dreaming and thinking of him and trying to stop myself but he actually turns out to be my husband!

My husband!!!!! I mentally shriek!

"Care to explain why you are staring at me"he said in a very cold and distant voice ...

"Uhmm nothing ..it's just uhmm I'm surprised ...uhmm that you are who you are! And you turn out to be my husband ...."i bent my head smiling and blushing ...

But that ddnt last for long! As he strolled to the side of my bed and sat facing me! He placed a finger under my chin and made me face him to look into his eyes and all i saw was pure hatred! They were so cold and distant "Tsk tsk tsk! That's where you got it wrong... I'm not your husband ...well i am to the world but not to you! I'm not and will never be your husband ....actually you know what? I love someone else! And i hate you...i hate you more than you can ever imagine" he said in his cold voice!

And i then felt my world crashing ...all my dreams shattered ...every girls dream is to have her husband telling her how beautiful she is and how lucky he is to have her on her first night! But in my case everything turned out very differently ...

I fight back the tears threatening to come down! As much as I want to cry out to the world I can't! You know why? Because Afreen Abduljabbar never cries! I won't let him see my weakness! I won't be weak....

With the most courage i gather i look back into his eyes"why?"

He had a confused look on his face and then frowned "why what?"

"Why did you freaking marry me? I was better off without you you know! Why didn't you marry the person you love? Why me?" I ask him raising my voice finally getting all the courage!

"Because my family wanted you and i did it for their happiness!" He said with an angry laced voice!

"Very well then! Guess what? I don't like you too! In fact i hate you more! And you want to be married to me to the world yeah?! Then so be it! For the world it is....starting from now...this room is mine and mine alone! So Mr Adal Ahmad Omar....use the door and please don't forget to close it"...i said rising from the bed and moving to the dressing area!

"So be it"he said angrily and stormed out of the room! And slammed tge door,the sound made me shake in fright as I immediately fell on the floor crying out my heart...with questions in my head why me? Why? This was supposed to be my happily ever after...why me? Ya Allah why?

*if it isn't you then who?do you want to it to happen to someone else?* that voice says...and i realise what I'm doing is wrong right now all i need is Allah...he is my strength and all i need right now...if He put me in this position then it is for a reason!

After getting myself together i unpinned my hijab and stared at myself in the mirror...my eyes were bloodshot and swollen,my make up had partially worn off leaving a half made up and half unmade face! In summary i looked completely opposite from what i was earlier this morning ,I look like a zombie ...

I started working on my hair removing every pin that was attached to my it...i unzipped my dress and went to take a long cool bath...after which i wore my nighties and performed ablution before proceeding to pray!

I prayed for Allah knows how long! I prayed to God to help me to show me the way to be my guide! And i felt relieved as if a heavy weight has been lifted off my shoulders ...

I got into bed,with only one person on my mind... Adal....i closed my eyes and immediately took off!
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"I hate you! I freaking hate you...marrying you was the biggest mistake I've ever made"he said to me angrily ...