the summer we fell || jeremiah fisher

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I woke up feeling someone shaking me, I look up to see Belly and Conrad. Had i fallen asleep?

"what time is it?" i say in a tired voice

"uh 9pm, u've been sleeping like all day" belly laughs

"9PM?!!?" i shout

"uh yes" conrad says

I groan "What are u guys doing in here"

"We need to speak to you lex, we're really worried" conrad said

"speak about what?" i ask acting confused but i knew it was going to be about me and jeremiah

"what's happening with u and jeremiah" belly says

"oh that.." i say awkwardly

"yeah, what's going on, we're really worried, what happened?" conrad asks concerned

"uh nothing" i say nervously

"lexi conklin do not lie to us we know somethings up, u and jere have never been like this" belly explains

"we just want to help it hurts us seeing u like this" conrad says as he sat himself onto my bed.

"well abit late for that i already told him i don't want anything to do with him anymore and i want him out of my life" i say scratching the back of my head

"lex seriously what's going on just tell us" conrad blurts getting agitated

i sigh letting out a big breath "i don't know i really don't, it all started when we had this moment and we nearly kissed, and then from that day on he has just been a dick, yesterday i walked him on him and gigi making out at shaylas party. I asked jeremiah to take me home but he refused yelling at me, then gigi started to say stuff to me, and jere didn't even say anything to stop her he just stood there and watched, so i just ran out and walked home. Then today i walked into the kitchen asking him wtf his problem was and he told me i was the problem and told me to fuck off." i tell them as tears rolled down my cheeks.

I hated talking about this, talking about it made me realise all this was real, i didn't want it to be real, conrad and belly sat on my bed with their mouths dropped to the floor. It looked like they were lost for words.

Finally conrad spoke up "wait he fucking let u walk home by yourself?!?!" he was angry i could tell as he had gotten up and started pacing around my room.

"it's fine i wanted to be alone anyway to be honest" i say

"i'm going to fucking kill him" conrad said getting more angry

"con stop, i'm over it, can u guys please just leave it" i say sounding upset

Belly could tell i was upset "we don't want to drop it, but if that's what u want we will, we'll let u take ur time and if it's not sorted in a few weeks we're speaking to him, but that still doesn't make it right that he let u walk home by yourself" belly explained.

"right okay so we're dropping it for now deal?" i say looking at both of them

"deal" conrad and belly say in unison

We lock pinky's as they promise they won't say anything to jeremiah until i say they can. They knew pinky promises were the only way i could trust someone, i was like a little kid.

(mention of scars)

When they left i didn't want to get out of bed, but i hadn't eaten or done anything all day. I decided i'll just go for a little swim in the pool as that always seemed to clear my head, i put on a pastel blue bikini and put my hair up. I look at my window to make sure no one was out there as no one knew about my scars still.

When i seen no one was outside i ran down the stairs into the garden, i dived into the pool, feeling the cold water hit my body, it felt nice, i felt relaxed. I swam laps around the pool and decided to swim to the bottom, just staying there for a few seconds. I push myself off the pool floor going back up to the surface wiping the water off of my face, I look up and i see jeremiah fisher. Why did he have to be everywhere especially when i wanted nothing to do with him.

We just stare at each other for a few minutes until i decided to break the contact, i went to go swim around again until jeremiah said "your in my pool"

i swim to the edge getting out "well i was just leaving" i said as i rolled my eyes at him.

I got up and went to head back inside until i felt a hand around my wrist, i turn around to see jeremiah staring at my wrists. Oh shit i forgot about my scars. I tried to let go of his grip so i could run inside but, he had a tight grip fair play to him.

"whats that?" he said gulping

"what's what" i said annoyed

"ur arm?" he said looking worried

"let go of me i told u leave me alone i don't want u in my life anymore, i want nothing to do with u" i say angrily.

He gently let go of my wrist, there was this look on his face he looked hurt and kind of upset i didn't know why though, he didn't even deserve to be upset after the way he had treated me. Did he still care though? Well even if he did i didn't want anything to do with him anymore.

I ran up to my room, i dried myself off with a towel and had a quick shower washing the chlorine off. I pick out some pink silk pyjamas and head to bed AGAIN for the 3rd time today.

I know i shouldn't be sleeping this much in a day especially cause it's summer but, i felt at peace when i slept i didn't have thoughts running through my head, i didn't have to worry about jeremiah, gigi, the deb ball, anything. My eyes slowly start to close and i drift off to sleep.