the summer we fell || jeremiah fisher

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(TW: MENTION OF S/H)

I stormed into the house and ran up to my room, no one was home, mom and susannah had told us all the girls had booked a hotel spa night for moms birthday so they wouldn't be home until tomorrow.

I was glad because i just wanted to be alone right now. I looked at myself in the mirror and my makeup was a mess, i had mascara all down my face, and my eyes were red from crying so much. I got changed out of my dress into some comfier clothes and collapsed onto my bed.

I thought scrolling through tiktok would make me feel better but, it didn't it made me worse i was in such a state. I know i shouldn't let a boy make me feel this way but, i genuinely wanted to be gone, i didn't want to wake up everyday with the same thoughts. Why couldn't he just love me like i loved him? What was i doing wrong? Am i really that hard to love?

Jeremiah had ruined me once again, i knew all this was a bad idea, when was i going to learn hes never going to change, he's always gonna be the same boy that fucks about with every girl, hooks up with them then leaves. I honestly thought i would be different, growing up as a kid i thought jeremiah could do no wrong to me. I guess i was wrong.

I cried so much my breathing started to get difficult, i felt the urge to relapse. Without thinking i walked over to desk and opened THE draw, i pulled out my blade, before doing it i thought about it for a second. I hesitate and put the blade back. I promised myself i would never let a boy make me do that to myself ever again. Certainly not Jeremiah fisher.

Instead i run myself a hot bubble bath with a bath bomb as i needed to do something to calm me down. After 20 minutes in the bath i got out and wrapped myself in a towel and headed back to my room, until i heard the door. I didn't even bother to ask who it was, i picked up my phone and the time was only 11:30. Who would come home that early from a party? i think to myself.

"lex we need to talk!" jeremiah screamed. Yup that's exactly who.

Without even knocking jeremiah storms into my room "privacy?!" i yell at him

"no time for that we need to talk now!" he demanded

"we'll i don't want to talk to u" i say rolling my eyes

"lex please" he begged

"don't lex me, i'm lexi to u" i say walking over to my closet to find some clothes

"please don't be like this" he said pleading

"me be like this?! jere i fucking like you, u admitted your feelings to me, then you go off hooking up with some dude! i'm done with your games" i yell at him without looking at him.

I really didn't want to see him right now, he made me so upset and angry. "lexi please, i was drunk i wasn't thinking, please just listen"

"being drunk is no excuse jere, i trusted you with my feelings, i thought you actually felt the same, but no apparently i'm also just another hook up" i say with tears in my eyes

"lexi your not, i like you, i really do" he said as he sat on my bed.

"mhm keep coming with the lies" i say scoffing

"cant u just trust me?!" he said loudly

"trust u? ur funny now get out" i yelled pointing at the door.

He hesitated but then left, every bone in my body wanted to forgive him, but my heart was thinking differently. I couldn't let myself get hurt by him again. As much as i liked him, i just can't put myself through it again, until he could prove to me he actually wanted me i had to force myself to let my feelings go.