The Werecat - Lumity AU

16 - You Mean the World to Me

Hey guys. I don't know how I'm supposed to apologize at this point, because every single time I say I'm gonna be alive and finish this story, I disappear. And it's not fair to any of you—so I'll say it again anyways—I'm sorry. I know it's not enough to say it once or twice or as many times as I want, because I haven't put any action behind my words. I don't want to give excuses, because I could've, at the very least, said I'd be away before I vanished, and there's no excuse for that. I'm so tired of everything going perfectly well and feeling great and then immediately falling apart again and again and again. Maybe I'm just making bad choices and it's my fault, but I don't feel like blaming myself over it. I don't why I'm still ranting, as none of you need to care about my problems. So before I get ahead of myself and make ya'll concerned—I'm fine, things have settled down, and I'm slowly moving on. High-school is a wild thing, am I right? So now that I've took up way too much of your time reading all this nonsense, and have still in no way made up for the absence. Let's just get to the actual story (PS I've worked on this chapter on and off for a while so hopefully it's coherent.)

Amity POV:

Watching Luz smile and laugh would never cease to make me happy, but at the same time I could not bring myself to smile back. We were having a good time yes—me, Willow, Viney, and Luz.. but really I knew they were just trying to distract me from the ongoing fight against my mother. That was a fact I could neither ignore nor forget. Someone could be hurt while we were sitting here playing games.

"Amity."

If I had done things differently, maybe this would've never happened! Now everyone's in danger, and I'm not supposed to do anything about it? How can they expect me to sit here and do nothing!

"Amity."

I know they're trying to save me, but maybe I can save myself! Maybe I can help—no, not maybe. I can help. They don't know what I'm capable of. But I do.

"Amity!" I felt a hand touch my shoulder. I looked over at Luz who wore that same encouraging smile, "It's your turn."

I nodded and rolled the dice. I rolled a 4 and 5 which was pretty good according to Luz.

"Hey! Not bad."

I shrugged letting no emotion show through my face, and at that, Luz's smile faded. She hugged me without saying a word.

At first I was still processing what was happening, but then I relaxed into the hug. A smile smile formed on my lips, "What was that for?"

"To get you to smile."

... How could someone be so kind and cute at the same time!! How could she know exactly how to make me feel better! I was sure my face was red by now. The other giggled at my loss of words. Eventually Luz let go, and the game continued. The memory fled to the back of my mind, and time returned to passing without meaning.

By the time the game ended, the others were tired and we all went to bed. But for me, sleep just wouldn't come. Opening the window, I looked out at the night sky. The breeze flowed in. It was peaceful and nice. But I couldn't help but think of the completely opposite chaos and violence that was being caused by my mother most likely this very minute. There had not been any news from the others, at least not any of my knowing. The only message I had heard of was an update saying they were all still fine, nothing else. It worried me. How much longer can I stay here, useless and without purpose?! I'm not sure.

As I looked out into the night, the sky turned brighter and brighter as my eyes adjusted and the world became crystal clear within an instant.

I'm sorry Luz.

Em POV:

It's official—any plan we once had had now vanished. In it's place was a knocked-out witch who could've potentially helped us. I didn't know how to feel about her either, but being careful enough and watching her closely seemed like it was working just fine.