Who am I?

Sorry not sorry

In first me and nick talked and laughed as if he never punched Alex. At lunch I thought about where I wanted to go. I wanted to talk to Wilbur and maybe get the book from him but I also wanted to apologise to alex for getting so mad. I decided to go to wilbur. I texted Alex apologizing for what I had said. I went to wilburs corner to see him putting my book on one of shelves.

"I still don't understand why you have like an entire corner of the library" I said setting down my bag.

"I don't understand why you want to know about nick so badly" he said sliding the book into place

"He's cute" I said

"Well I can't disagree but I won't agree" he said looking at me

"How do you know Alex?" I asked

"Oh I became interested in him one day a while back but he stopped talking to me when my and nick broke up, I don't blame him, he was just being a good friend to nick." He explained

"You aren't mad at him?" I asked

"No. I'm upset with his choice and I believe he could've found a better solution" he shrugged

"...I hate you"

"You're just mad I know how to talk to people" he said

"What did you and Alex talk about when he told you about my eating disorder" I asked

"Well we traded greetings and he informed of you're eating disorder then we parted" he smiled

"That's it? I'd assume old friends would talk about more then that" I said watching him walks to a self.

"... I was doing what he asked before we stopped talking" he said quietly

"What did he ask you to do?" I asked confused

"To only engage with him when he wants me to" he said walking to his desk

"But you didn't come here to hear about me and Alex" he said walking to the shelves behind me.

He grabbed a book with a beautiful detailed flower drawing as the cover. He handed it to me.

"Is this the book about nick?" I asked

"Yep, ever single detail" he said

I opened the book and read the first line

'My name is William gold and I have an eating disorder'

"You have an eating disorder?" I asked looking up at him

"I had one. But I got better. There's nothing to be ashamed of" he said

"Did you draw this?" I asked

"That's how I see nick" he said looking at the cover

"Will this explain your weird thing with this library?" I giggled

"Definitely not" he smiled at me

"I'll bring this back to you in a day or two" I said

"Yes you will" he said sitting at his desk

I grabbed my stuff a left. I had about 15-20 minutes left if lunch so I went to Alex, Clay, and George. Clay and George were listening to music together while nick sat on his phone. I walked up to him and sat down next to him.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have yelled at you yesterday. You were just trying to help me. Thank you for worrying about me" I said to him nervously

"Thank you for apologizing. To be honest I shouldn't have told your problems to other people with out asking if it was okay with you" Alex smiled at me

"You got the book" Alex said looking at the book about nick

"Yep" I smiled looking at it

"Speak of the devil" Alex said making me look up. Nick was walking over to us

I hid the book in my bag before he had a chance to see it.

"Hey I just wanted to say sorry for punching you Alex. That wasn't cool of me" nick said

"It's cool man" Alex said

The two hugged.

"It's nice of you to apologize" I said to nick

"Yeah I guess" he said embarrassed

When the bell rang I stood up with my stuff and somewhat rushed to the building.

I read the book about nick and wils relationship in my last two classes.

The book started off talking about Wilburs eating disorder and how he was handling it but it immediately turned completely about nick.
Their relationship started off sweet and cute like any picture perfect relationship but it started becoming sour and hate filled.

Wilbur wasn't very obsessed with nick, he loved him and wanted to kiss him and give him gentle love but nick didn't want gentle love, he was obsessed with Wilbur. If their were watching a film while cuddling nick would start being very pushy about making out, if they were cooking he would do everything in his power to touch Wil, everything they did was nicks decision. Wil justified it with 'i never spoke up about it or told him I didn't like it so it's not his fault he doesn't know to stop'
After months of Wilbur just trying to ignore these things that Nick had been doing nick started becoming bored. He stopped being pushy about having sex or making out. He actually started seeing other people for those things. That's how he and Wil met Alex. They were at a party, nick got shit faced and had sex with Alex. The day after Wilbur found out, Alex apologized endlessly, so did nick though he didn't seem sorry. Wilbur forgave the two. After a few months him and Alex became friends.

They broke up when Nick had gone to far. He and Wilbur agreed that he could see over people sexually, but only on person at a time and Wil had to meet the person. Nick was supposed to tell Wil before he went out for that stuff.