Who am I?

Suicide

Around the middle of the night I woke up. I was cuddling with Wilbur. I slithered out of his arms and went to his bathroom where I saw his anti depressives sitting on the sink. I picked up the bottle and opened it. I poured the pills into my hand and stared at them. I heard movement behind me. I quickly through the pills into my mouth and swallowed as much as I could. "Karl?" I started coughing pills I couldn't swallow falling into the sink. "Karl holy shit" I heard Wilbur yell.

I looked at him, feeling nothing. He grabbed the empty bottle and looked at it, then me. He grabbed me and pushed his two finger down my throat. I pushed him back and through up in the sink. I felt like I was going to pass out.

"Shit. Karl. I- i don't know what to do" he said panicking.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry wilbur. I- i dont- i have no idea what im doing"

Tears fell from my eyes at looked at him scramble to grab his phone and call 999 (911) he hung up the phone after a few minutes of talking to them. He pushed fingers down my thoat making me puke again. I pushed him away from me.

"Stop doing that"

He stared at me wide eyed. Fear on his face. Genuine and pure fear. "I'm- I'm sorry-" he said weakly. "I dont know how to help-"

Very loud and bright sirens came closer to the house. Me and wilbur stared at each other. Fear and worry in his eyes. Nothing in mine. The paramedics brought me to the hospital in an ambulance, they wouldn't let Wilbur come with us so he had to drive. In the hospital they made me take drug tests. They called my family and told them I would have to stay for a few hours. Wilbur sat in the hospital room with me for a while before stepping outside to make a call.

I sat in the hospital bed watching people walk past the door. Wilbur came back into the room still on the phone.

"Yeah I know. I'm sorry about calling you I just thought you needed to know. Yeah. I- no he's fine. Calm down. Okay, see you and Alex soon" he hung up the phone and looked at me. He smiled weakly.

"I'm so sorry wilbur. I ruined your meds and scared you and-"

"I'm just glad you're okay karl. It's good that I was there. If you hadn't pulled then this would be a lot worse" he said sitting down on the edge of the bed

"Who did you call" I asked

"No one important"

My sister and colby burst into the room making me and wilbur jump in fright. Lisa rushed to hug me while colby stood next to her.

"Thank god youre okay" Lisa said loudly

"Who is this?" Colby asked staring at Wilbur while blushing

"He's my friend Wilbur- get off me Lisa!"

Lisa and Wilbur went outside the room to talk while colby followed them. I looked out the small window on the door and saw my mom sobbing into my dads chest while he talked to the doctor. I rolled my eyes and looked away from them. My dramatic mom. Always crying. How is this hard for her? She's not the one who almost died. She's not the one that watched me swallow the pills. She's not the one that had to force me into puking.

Mom and dad walked into the room breaking me out of my train of thought. Mom wouldn't look at me. Dad did though. He looked me in the eyes.

"Why? What happened?" He said

"I accidently took to many pain killers" I said quietly

"They were anti depressives."

"Those count as pain killers"

"This isn't the time for jokes Karl"

"I-" nick and Alex knocked on the door while walking in. That's who wilbur called.

Nick stared at me petrified while Alex went to my side. He hugged me gently.

"I'm glad you're okay" he whispered.

"Nick. Alex." My father nodded at them. They smiled as a response.

"Mom. Dad. Go away please. I want to talk to Nick and Alex." I said calmly

My mom and dad left the room. Wilbur walked in and over to me. He completely avoided looking at nick. Alex closed the door.

"I told your sister the full story. She's not going to tell your parents, don't worry" Wil said quietly

"What happened?" Nick asked

"I tried to kill myself." I said blankly

"Why?" Alex asked sitting on the edge on the bed

"I- I dont- I" I don't know.

"Hey it's okay sweetheart, you don't have to tal about it" Wil said holding the side of my face.

"Wilbur." Nick said making Wil stand up "yes?" Wil asked somewhat scared

"Thank you" nick said not letting any obvious emotions show.

"Yeah... anything for Karl" Wil said quietly to himself

"I'm sorry for freaking you guys out. You shouldn't have to deal with this. You've known me for less then a month and I'm already making your lives hard" I said looking down

"Don't apologise for this Karl. You aren't making our lives harder" Alex said putting a hand on my leg.

"Wilbur come here" nick said. Wilbur walked to him as if he was being controlled. Nick pulled him close and whispered into Wilbur's ear. Wil visible tighten his body as nick whispered to him. They pulled away from each other and looked other at me. Wil looked to me then at Alex then at nick. Nick walked to my side and started talking at me but all I could focus on was a frozen Wilbur.

I've never seen him like this. He was standing there as if he was possessed. What did Nick say to him? What scared him this badly that he couldn't move.

"And-" I interrupted whatever nick was saying. "Wil. Are you okay?" I asked making him look at me.

"I'm fine karl. Sorry. I'm going to.. I'm going to go get something to eat" he said before leaving the room quickly.

"What did you say to him?" I asked Nick

"Nothing. How long have you been talking to him?" Nick said

"I don't know a while" I shrugged

"Right. Why didn't you tell me?" He asked annoyed

Alex silently stood up and left the room.

"I don't know. I just didn't want you to hurt him or anything. We have a connection that I don't have with you" I said crossing my arms

"What connection?" He said angry

Well his dick is better then yours

"I don't know! I- I dont have to explain myself to you!" I said looking away from him

"Look at me!" He said loudly "Karl"

"Go away nick"

He grabbed my face and made me look at him. He leaned down and got level with my eyes.

"You are nothing special to Wilbur" he spoke quietly and harshly

He let go of me and left the room. Wilbur was about to enter but had his name called by nick, he quickly went to nick the second he heard his name.