Who am I?

Eating

"You guys are crazy for having your first time in this nasty ass bathroom" clay giggled

"Can you help me up the stairs?" I asked embarrassed

"Yeah" he rolled his eyes

We left the bathroom together. I had to lean on him as we walked to and up the stairs. He helped me into the library and to Wilbur.

"Karl and clay! Good to see you two again!" Wil said excited as clay helped me sit in a chair

"Are you okay karl?" Wilbur asked looking me in the eyes

"I'm fine" I sighed

The two stood nearly and inch away from each other, they were staring into the others eyes. A smiles creeped onto wilburs face as clays face stayed emotionless.

"I like you! No wonder nick likes you so much, you're fun" Wil giggled

"Nick talked about me while you two were dating?"

"Oh yes! He said so much about you clay." Wil smiled somewhat frantically

"He called you the most amazing person he's ever had the pleasure to be around" I chimed in

"Yes he did!" Wilbur said

"So what's your relationship with Karl? Are you friends? Just fucking? Secretly dating?" Wil asked invasivly

"Just friends. I have a boyfriend" clay said taking a step away from Wil

"Right! George." Wil said

"Yeah.."

The two continued to talk about George and Alex and nick while I looked for a book about eating disorders. I found one called 'the art of killing yourself' i stared at it wondering why that was the title.

"Anyways I should get back to biology, mr Eret hates me enough" clay giggled

"Right right. Good meeting you clay" Wilbur smiled as the two shook hands.

"See you later bro" clay said dapping me up before leaving

"That's a good book. You should read it" Wil said to me

"Oh yeah, why is it call the art of killing yourself if it's about eating disorders?"

"Because eating disorders kill a person. Mentally and physically"

"Oh. Alright do I need to check it out?" I asked

"No she couldn't care less about these books" Wil said going back to his desk

"Okay... so now what do we do?"

"You and nick live with Alex for the week and we continue talking. If you want to of course" he said not looking at me

"And what will we do if nick finds out?"

"I'll break your bones and feed you to dogs" he said harshly. He had a very strong voice for someone who doesn't talk to many people.

"Actually?" I asked scared

He raised an eyebrow at me"no, sarcasm."

"You have an ascent to be fair"

I went to a different part of the library and read most of the book before lunch. At lunch I met nick and Alex at the parking lot. We went to my house and made sandwiches. While we were eating my dad walked through the front door.

"Karl! Who are these boys and why are you not at school?" He said as he set his things down.

"This is Alex he was with me when I passed out, and this is Nick, my friend. We're eating off campus, it makes it easier for me." I said calmly

He sighed in response and went to his bedroom.

"Sorry, he's-"

"NO SEX IN MY HOUSE" dad yelled making all three of us burst out in uncontrollable laughter.

Nick and Alex went back to school but I stayed home. I was tired and still sore. I sat on my bed replying what happened in the bathroom over and over in my head.

"Karl- you need to be in school" dad said from the door way

"Did you ever sleep with anyone who wasn't female?" I asked not looking at him

"...yeah his name was Adrian. I only hooked up with him once!"

"Is mom homophobic?" I asked sitting up

"No definitely not. Actually she's the opposite." He said sitting next to me

"She's a lesbian?" I asked confused

"What? No- she's pan sexual"

"Oh, then why is she with a four?" I giggled

"Hey I used to be a ten!" He laughed

"Look I don't want to think we don't love you. We love all of you, it's just hard giving an even amount of attention to you kids when you're sister is sick." He sighed

"Yeah don't be telling me this"

"What?"

"Tell colby this. He's taking everything the hardest"

"Shit really? Honestly we thought he just didn't care"

"No he cares a lot, he's almost never home" I said looking at a picture of me and him on the wall

"I'll talk to him" dad sighed

He left my room and went back to work leaving me by myself. I decided to do what every teenage boy does and watch porn. I hated it. It felt like I was intruding. I watched a few videos of two men doing just normal sex, then I tried to watch straight stuff but immediately switched it when the women got naked, then I watch polyamory porn, it looked like if felt amazing and actually got me excited but then the feeling of intuition kicked in. I gave up on porn after about an hour. I grabbed my phone and started texting Alex

You
Hey Alex you in a lesson right now?

Alex
Nah I'm sitting in the bathroom waiting for school to end why?

You
I'm bored and want to hang out

Alex
I'll text Nick to meet me at the parking lot, we can come over

You
Yes please

Alex
Okay be there soon<3