Who am I?

Hurt

I got to school on Wednesday still thinking about the book. How in love and sweet they were. How horribly toxic they were. How nick went to far. I came to school early and went straight to Wilbur. He was reading a book when I saw him.

"Karlos!" He said closing the book and standing up

"How many people have read your book wilbur?" I asked

His face dropped to dead serious. He walked up to me and stood a perfect four inches away from me. He leaned his head down slightly for his mouth to be next to my ear.

"I'm going to hurt him Karl." He whispered

I said nothing

"He ruined me. He broke me" his voice lowered, I could hear the smile.

He stood up straight and smiled.

"Can I have my book back now? I'd like to put in away"

"Yeah sorry" I grabbed the book from my bag and gave it to him. He put it away quickly before going to his desk and writing something down

"Did you ever speak to nick after that?" I asked

"Well of course. I had to make sure he understood that we were done" Wil said looking at me

"I won't take it personally if you stop seeing me. You got what you came here for so-"

"You're interesting. I don't want to just leave you"

"Am i an exhibit to you?" He asked

"What? No!" I said standing up straight

"Have you and nick slept together?" Wil said putting a hand on my shoulder

"No I've been working up the courage" I said embarrassed

"Good" he smiled "now get out I'm trying to work on something" he walked to his desk

I left the library and made sure to be extremely flirty with nick, I did the thinking Wil used to do. He seemed to like it. I spent lunch with him. I made sure to do small things that Wilbur had talking about in his book. I had been wearing a lose button up so I made sure my collarbone was showing. I made sure to play with his hair as much as I could. After school he asked if I wanted to hang out at his house but I said my place would be better.

We went to my house and went straight to my room. I sat on my bed while he looked around the place.

"What's this?" He asked looked at the signed paperwork saying I have an eating disorder

"Don't look at that!" I yelled grabbing the paper form his hands.

"You have an eating disorder?" He asked me as I shoved the paper in my trash bin

"Yeah.. I didn't want to tell anyone" I said sitting down in the bed

"Hey don't worry I won't judge you" he said sitting next to me

"What type of eating disorder do you have?" He asked

"There's more then one?" I asked surprised

"Yeah! I used to have one, I would eat as much as I could and then make myself puke. When my mom found out she made me go to therapy. But there are other kinds then that. There's when you don't eat to the point you're starving you're self. There's eating to the point you make yourself very sick." He said reassuringly

"I have a hard time eating I guess. I passed out from under eating" I said not looking at him

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked moving my face so that I was looking at him

"Im ashamed of having an eating disorder nick. I feel like a freak, I didn't want you to think I am one"

"Karl you aren't a freak for having problems. Problems are what make you human" his hand holds onto mine

I can't help but stare at him imagining things. What he did to Wilbur. The way he didn't even seem apologetic. Him forcing himself to throw up. I kissed him while putting my free hand in his shoulder. Before he got a chance to react loud banging on the houses front door startled us. I got up and left the room, Nick trailing behind me.

I opened the door and was greeted to Alex's panicked face. I opened the door fully and stared at him. His shirt was wrinkled and slightly drity while his shorts had a section burnt off.

"Alex are you o-"

"M-my dad. He's missing an-and I-"

"Hey hey it's okay come Inside." I said pulling him into a hug. He tightened his arms around me and sobbed into my chest.

Nick watched as we hugged. I let Alex inside the house and made him some tea. The three of us sat at my kitchen table.

"My dad has been missing for three days now. He's never been gone for longer then a day or two. I called all his friends and family but they don't know where he is" Alex said watching the tea move around slightly as my leg shook up and down underneath the table

"Have you filed a police report?" Nick asked

"No I don't know if I should" Alex said

"You should" I said

Alex's eyes met with mine. Pain. I have never seen such pain in someone's eyes. His eyes were dark and dead.

"He told me not to" Alex said not looking away from me

"Who told you not to?" I asked

"My granddad" he looked down at the tea again "when I called him he said 'this day has been coming for a long time. I'm not surprised he just up and left.' He called him a stupid alcoholic and a awful father"

"Does your grandfather have something to do with your dad missing?" Nick asked

"No he said him and pop pop were out of town for the month" Alex said picking up the mug of coffee

"So what do you want to do?" I asked him

"I'll wait until the end of the week. If he isn't back I'll file a missing persons. While I wait for him to come back I'll throw out all the alcohol in the house" Alex said taking a sip of the drink.

"Do you want someone to stay with you?" Nick asked

"Yeah we can help keep your house clean and keep you company" I smiled

"You need to stay with your family right now karl. Your sist-"

"No she'll understand" I said cutting Alex off

"Alright" Alex smiled