the love that i give

Pain and Doubts

Three weeks have passed, it's been the normal routine, school, work, relax, hangs.

Elyssa just picked Javon from school and is taking him to his taekwondo classes, yes he has started taekwondo.

"Mummy will pick you up in two hours okay baby? Don't forget to stay safe" Elyssa said, "yes mummy, I love you" Javon said, "I love you too baby, now go break some boards" Elyssa said again and they both laughed before bidding goodbye.

Elyssa has been thinking about a lot things and she feels like it's time she starts addressing these things one by one, first go back to where she rescued Javon from and seek for answers.

She entered her car and started driving to the house where Javon used to live, 'am I making the right choice?' She questioned herself as she sat in her car.

After gathering courage, she finally got out of her car and walked to the door, she rang the bell.

The door later opened and it's the woman from last time, this time she looks more....wretched.

"Hi" Elyssa greeted, "it's you again, what do you want? Are you tired of him already?" The lady asked harshly,

"I come in peace, and no I'm not giving my son back to you, rather I just have few questions I wanna ask" Elyssa answered back,

"Questions about what?"

"Can I at least come in? Please?"
The lady looked into her house then nodded shifting to the side so Elyssa can walk in. The house was dirty, reeked of cigarettes, oh I remember her husband took their kids with him so she's probably alone,

"I- I have to clean today"
"I don't mind I'm not here for your personal life or well being anyway"

"Woman just ask the questions you want to ask"

"Okay" Nina stoped as she was nervous, "I want to know the background on Javon, everything"

"Oh- what do you wanna know?"
"First, you talked about his mother not finishing her dues when she lived with you before she died and left you with a load of work, who was his biological mother? Her background, why she lived with you?"

"Oh. She was a young girl I think she was seventeen years old. Her parents chased her out because she was pregnant. She went from house to house asking if they needed a house help, I guess she just wanted a place to live. Well I accepted her, she helped with things around my house in exchange I fed her and gave her a place to sleep"

Elyssa started thinking again and this story wants to match that of her childhood best friend who got chased away and died,

"What's her name?" Elyssa asked, her heart was beating so fast,

"Mariam victory Lane" the woman said,

Elyssas vision started becoming blurry. She shook her head countless times, her eyes became watery, her lips were shaking, too heavy to move,

"W-what d-did you say?" Elyssa stuttered and asked, "her name, Mariam Victory Lane" the lady repeated again,

"O-my- oh m-my gosh" Elyssa said as she broke down crying holding her chest, while the woman stared at her confused,

"Are you okay madam? Do you need water?" The lady asked, "n-no. What happen t-to her again?" Elyssa asked while sobbing and stuttering, this explains why she felt so connected to Javon the first time she saw him,

"She died during childbirth, she never got to hold her son or watch him grow. I wanted to give him up for adoption, but I don't know what made me keep him" the lady responded.