TW: ED
A/N: You may see some lines that are similar to lyrics or are lyrics from Empty by JaidenAnimations and Victoria's Secret by JAX. Also, words like this are the voices in yn's head.
Yn's pov:
"Would you like some chili?" Paul asks. "No thanks. I'm not hungry. I ate." I say. But that wasn't the truth. I'm hungry. I haven't eaten in a week, almost two. Nobody noticed. I don't think they did, at least.
Two days later, it has officially been 2 weeks since I ate last. I'm beginning to feel weak. But I hide it well. We all took a shower after a really messy call. I look at myself in the mirror.
Dont want to stay an embarrassment
You just have to stomach it.
They don't know what you want.
Marjan's pov:
I was the 2nd one to walk out of the shower. Yn was the first. I see her staring at herself in the mirror. She is really skinny. She looks like she hasn't eaten in weeks. "Hey, yn, are you okay?" I ask, worried. "What? Yeah." She says with a fake smile. Tommy comes out. "Yn? Are you okay?" She asks, obviously worried too. "Why is everyone asking me if I'm okay. I said I'm okay!" Yn yells, getting her sweatshirt on. "Yn," I say. She runs before I can finish my sentence. I exchange looks with Tommy.
Tk's pov:
I'm in the bunks. I'm not doing all that good right now. My head is like a maze. Yn runs in and sits on the floor. She starts crying. "Hey.. what's wrong?" I ask. She lifts her shirt a little. She looks like she hasn't eaten in two weeks. "It's okay.. you can get better.." I say. "But every time I do, it never stays. Nobody ever notices or helps or stays. Everyone always leaves me because I'm either too fat or too skinny!" She yells. I felt so bad for her. I know how it feels to relapse more than anyone here. Even though she doesn't have a problem with pills. It's an addiction, too. "We won't ever leave you, Yn.." Tommy says. "Yeah. You need to eat to survive." Marjan says. Yn stands up, I can tell she's about to pass out. I put my hands out, and she falls to the ground.
Yn's pov:
"We won't ever leave you, yn.." Tommy says. I know it's a lie. Everyone leaves. "Yeah. You need to eat to survive." Marjan says.
It's like hunger games every night..
You need to lose your appetite..
I'm under so much pressure..
I can reach out. To someone not like me.
I can ask for help. It doesn't make me weak.
I stand up, but the next thing I know. Everything is black.
I wake up in a hospital bed. I see Mateo sitting there. I figure everyone is taking turns visiting me. Since we both have a love for Captain America. I say, "On your left.." in a weak voice. He looks up at me. "You're awake.." he says. He runs out "guys guys she's awake!" Marjan is the first to run in. "Hey.." I say. "Hey.." She says. "I'm.. sorry.." I say, trying not to cry. "Don't apologize, yn.." Tommy says. "We're going to help you yn. I know a really good therapist and a good meeting." Tk says. I know it isn't going to be easy in the slightest. But I know that I have a family now. The 1-2-6 family.
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Multiple Series Oneshots
Fanfiction911 Lone Star, Station 19, Grey's Anatomy, and Chicago Fire Mostly angst.. Some with self insert and some with just the characters.
