Hidden Feelings

EPILOGUE

- Listen to the song "Sa Susunod Na Habang Buhay By: Ben&Ben as you read this chapter so you can feel the story better.

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Nadia Elara

It's been 2 years since that happened and it still hurts.

Yes, I accepted it already because it has been 2 years.

But sometimes I regret it because I'm a coward.. Hindi man lang ako naka amin sakaniya dahil sa kakaisip ko sa kalalabasan nito.

Pinagsisihan ko ang lahat..

Sana naka amin man lang ako sayo Selene..

Bago ka namatay..

Yes.. She died two years ago. We got into an accident that day when we were supposed to be going home.

And sadly she died..

And that's so fucking hurt so much..

Pero may maisasakit pa pala nung nalaman kong namatay siya..

Kino told me that Selene turned her down.

Hindi siya nagpaligaw sakaniya dahil she likes someone.

And that someone is me..

It brokes me into pieces when I found out that.

Pero huli na ang lahat..

Huli na ako.

Sorry Selene.

Sana umamin ako sayo. Sana sinabi ko sayo kung ano ang nararamdaman ko.

Hindi ko man lang nasabi sayo na gusto kita.

Hindi mo man lang nadinig na sabihin ko sayo na gusto kita, Selene.

As I write this I got in tears.

I hope we will meet again in the next life.

If we ever meet again I won't hesitate to confess to you, I promise you that.

I love you, Selene.

Huling sulat ko sa huling pahina ng aking notebook at isinara ko na ito.

Andito ako ngayon sa harapan ng puntod niya at sinusulat sa isang purple notebook ang story namin.

Because she's my bestfriend.

My first bestfriend.

And my first love.

She likes color purple, that's why I wrote it in a color purple notebook.

"Kamusta ka na, Selene?" pakikipag usap ko sakaniyang puntod at hindi ko na mapigilan ang umiyak.

Until now napaka sakit pa din.. Hindi pa din ako makapaniwala na nangyari ito.

"I hope you're happy where you are right now" nakangiting saad ko at hinawakan ang kaniyang puntod.

"I wrote our story in your favorite color purple notebook oh, atleast in here.. I can say that I like you, Selene" I said at umiyak na ako ng tuluyan.

"The sunset reminds me of you now, that's our last bond, Selene.. I will never forget that, I will never forget you" saad ko habang nakatingin sakaniyang puntod.

"Napakadaya mo nga dahil iniwan mo ako, iniwan mo kami.. Alam mo ba nung time na wala ka na gusto ko na lang tumakbo papalayo dahil sobrang sakit ng nangyari" umiiyak na saad ko.

Maybe this is the time to let go, Selene. It's been a years now so I'm letting you go but it doesn't mean that I will forget you.

I'm letting you go so you can rest in peace now.

"I'm letting you go now, Selene"

This is the last words that I can say to you that you will never hear now.

I love you, Selene.

I like you so much.

I'm giving up your ghost..

I'm letting you go my great lost love, Selene.

I wrote you this very last story of us.

END.