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Intimacy

Authors note**     Trying to do smth new lol. Still on hiatus, just finished this up real quick. Like I said, I'll see if I can manage to add a chapter or two here and there. Another first-person practice. Fluff - Origin/Galaxy

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I pondered my life decisions. How'd I manage to end up here, in Origins bed, with said mammoth of a man curled up on top of me like a house cat? I swear my organs had to have moved aside to make room for cuddles. I'd woken up to the sun glaring into my eyes; warm but unpleasantly blinding. Origin remained asleep, halfway on top of me and the insides I definitely didn't need.

Don't get me wrong, it wasn't bad. It's not like I'm not against physical touch per se, although I tended to get uncomfortable with weirdly timed, long hugs and sleeping close to most steves. Even sharing a boat was often awkward. But thinking back on it, Origin absolutely hated touch, especially like this. At least, when we'd first met. Origin wasn't shy about not wanting to be touched in the slightest. He almost punched Sabre when their hands brushed up together for a moment. He tried to strangle me when I'd patted him on the shoulder. To be fair, we were basically strangers at the time, most find it unpleasant when a stranger invades their personal space; Origin had just been very vocal about it. I certainly don't like it, I just can't bring myself to say anything because the awkwardness mutes me.

I can respect that, again I'm not the touchy type myself. But as we were less like strangers and more like friends, Origin would drift closer. It wasn't much at all, but Time, who was most observant, had indeed picked up on it and mentioned it to me. That Origin wouldn't freak out like he normally did when our arms touched and would willingly high-five Sabre. I remember how Sabre was shocked when Origin high-fived him instead of ignoring his raised hand for the first time, happily so of course.

But, after much longer, as me and Origin's friendship had started turning into what it was now, Origin seemed to get... for lack of better words, clingy. I would get hugs from Origin, I remembered the first time, he'd hugged me from behind and rested his head on my own as I was making lunch. I remember how weird it felt and how warm he was. I was uncomfortable, but not like I'd normally be, instead the awkwardness bubbled up into my throat from my heart and made me feel warm. It was nice, though, as I melted into it like the butter on my pan.

I would feel him brush his hand up against mine and leave it there, the backs of our hands still touching. I remember a lot of things that are small and seemingly insignificant, but when added all together drove me mad. I was pleasantly confused by the physical affection he'd started showing me. So was Time, who audibly gasped the first time he saw Origin place a hand on my shoulder. He pretended to have stubbed his toe when Origin and Sabre looked at him funny. Sabre himself was oblivious to it all, probably cause he was used to physical touch.

I know he has always shown his appreciation for people and friendship through touching. Origin never did but I can only assume it didn't register in Sabre's brain half the time. Either way, it was weird to me, but not in a bad way. It flustered me, made me feel warm, and sometimes even safe. But it wasn't the norm for Origin, and he only acted that way towards me I'd soon come to realize. It went on like so for a while, and I adjusted again to this new dynamic. I loved the affection and spending more time together. It became comfortable, especially when it was just me and him. I didn't understand why at the time, but I didn't care in the end, cause it was nice. But it all made sense one day when he was over at my house late at night.

We'd been talking all evening, just casually. We were on my couch, just chatting over movies we'd both already watched. It was a fluent conversation, it drifted from talking about the movie to talking about cats to talking about society and so on. I don't remember why, but we ended up talking about relationships and how we felt about them.