His Secret Wife (Completed)

Chapter 05: Jealous

Chapter 05: JEALOUS

"Sigurado ka na ba sa gagawin mo, Cassandra?"

Napatigil ako sa pag-iimpake ng aking mga damit ng tanungin ako ni Manang.

I will never be sure about leaving Sean, the only man I love. But I'm sure about loving myself more and that includes setting myself free away from the pain.

"Sigurado na ako, Manang. Ayoko na pong masaktan. Tama kayo. Panahon na para sumaya naman ako."

Napatingin naman ako sa malaking picture frame ng wedding photo namin ni Sean. Kahit pilit lang ang ngiti niya roon, it still means a lot to me. At least he made an effort to smile even just a little bit, right?

It's just that, fate didn't want us together. I can't help but to be bitter. Hindi man lang niya naibalik nang kahit kaunti ang sobra-sobrang pagmamahal na ibinibigay ko sa kanya. Everything didn't turn out the way I wanted it to be-loving me the way I love him.

Pagkatapos kong magpaalam kay Manang, hindi na ako nagpasama pa palabas ng bahay. It would only slow me down from leaving our house.

Nagmamadali akong lumabas ng bahay ngunit para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig nang makita si Sean. He looks wasted with his unbuttoned shirt. His hair's even messy and his eyes were bloodshot.
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He raised his gaze when he felt my presence in front of him. His eyes widened before his eyes travelled down to the luggage that I brought with me.

Without a word, I averted my gaze and started to walk again when he held my arm to stop me.

"D-Don't go..." he's stuttering but it was too clear for me to understand.

On a second thought, I think I don't really understand him. This is what he wants and now he doesn't want me to go.

"Don't go..." ulit niya na mas malinaw kong narinig.

"This is it, Sean," panimula ko nang muli ko siyang lingunin. "I'm finally setting you free. Kung iniisip mo ang sasabihin ng mga magulang natin, you don't have to worry about that. I'll explain everything. I'll take all the blame. Ano pa bang kailangan mo, ha?" matapang kong tanong.

He was taken aback with what I said. Maybe he thinks that I'll run back to his arms, the moment he said those triggering words.

"You," he suddenly said while capturing my gaze with his. "I need you," he delivered those words more clearly.

Halos sabunutan ko ang sarili sa sobrang gulo ng isip ko at sobrang frustration.

""Ayoko na, Sean! 'Wag mo ng guluhin pa ang isip ko." I almost shouted.

I can feel that my neck veins are already present, at this moment.

"Ito na nga o... Papakawalan na nga kita, eh. Bakit kailange mo pang guluhin ang desisyon ko?" halos nagmamakaawang tanong ko.

Alam ko sa sarili kong isang beses niya pang sabihin na wag akong umalis ay bibigay ako at muling magpapakatanga sa kanya. But instead of begging me again, he walked towards me, I was about to step back when he reached for my cheek and I felt his lips covered mine.

"I'm sorry..." he whispered right after he gave me a swit tender kiss. "I'm sorry if I hurt you. I'm sorry if I'm a jerk and an asshole husband."

I scanned his face to find sincerity and when I looked straight into his eyes, I found them... and there's even more.

"Nabulag ako ng galit ko, Sandra. Marrying you deprived me so many things that I want to do in my life. Nasira ang lahat ng plano ko para sa sarili dahil sa yo. That's why I loathe you so much, " he started explaining. "Sa tuwing gagawa ka ng effort para sa akin, lagi kong ipinapaalala sa sarili ko ang nasira kong pangarap dahil sa 'yo. I always telling myself that shouldn't fall for you." His eyes became a pool of tears. Konting konti na lang, babagsak na ang mga luhang naipon doon. Thinking that those tears are for me, makes my heart melt.