WITH YOU!

68. YOU'LL HAVE TO LIVE!

VIVAAN

I laughed at her childish fears, as she stick to me, not allowing me to go out to the store! I would have told anyone else to bring whatever she wanted in the kitchen with her, but no, I can't risk it with her, plus I want to spend more-&-more time with her!

I could see her terror on her face! Every-time someone even approached us to help us, she would come in front of me, her palms getting all sweaty, as she gripped my hands tightly!

A man of mine came to me, whom she didn't know, & by his looks, she got so scared that I had to assure her three times, that he means no harm!

My little, pretty caring girl! What would I ever do without her! I don't know what happened to her, maybe she have had a nightmare, or maybe watched some stupid movie again, but her fear for me made me feel the warmth of her love! It makes me feel safe, protected, un-vulnerable, like I always used to feel before her...

I don't know what love looks or feels like, but I get a small touch of it only around her! She always conceals her love, but it can be seen through small, little steps of hers, like her cooking, her not stopping me from touching her, & today in the car, she herself was going to kiss me, with those eyes confessing it all!

I had seen these feelings in her eyes for the first time in Delhi, in her cousin's wedding, when she sang that song for me, & I felt like I'm the luckiest man alive, but when I saw those feelings in her eyes in the car today, I can see her passion, her love, her feelings growing to the extent, that my heart fluttered at an unexpected pace, making me feel euphoric, & for the first time, I wanted to make love to her, to feel her, not to fuck her like a fucker that I'm!

How stupid of me to think of having some stupid one-night stand with her, I curse myself for even that thought, more-&-more, when I see those feelings in her eyes, when I feel the warmth of her protectiveness, her LOVE, which is more pleasurable & satisfying than any of my fucks till now!

In fact the nights, with the best of the whores, can't even match the level of pleasure, when I merely look at her blushing cheeks, & lowered eyes! I chuckled at my own thoughts, as she asked me if I'm ok!

Girl, girl, how do I tell you how much crazy you drive me by just asking me such questions! My heart flutter & beat faster at these acts of hers! In fact I feel those stupid butterflies in my belly, whenever she cares for me like that!

I smiled assuring her, by squeezing her sweaty palms!

She looked at me in the whole place, just like a mother looks at her young child, who might get lost somewhere! I felt so cared for, & I deliberately kept on moving here-&-there to tease her, & to assure myself that she is actually looking at me only! My heart beat faster every time, she gets nervous & scared just by not finding me around her!

It's my first time at any grocery store, & it's a nice place, only cause I'm here with her!

I hid behind a rack, & she almost got a panic-attack! God, I'm loving this now!

I told her I'm getting bored, & almost went out, when she decided to hurry up, & we went towards the last rack! I'm hungry after teasing her so much, so I decided to have some Greek yogurt, looking here-&-there at the colorful things & parcels, I've no idea about, nor do I want to know about them!

Then suddenly I saw her rushing to me, & before I could even look at her, she pushed me down with hard force, on the floor, as I fell down, not being ready for her sudden attack!