WITH YOU!

41. SAFE HANDS!

AISHA

As I thought I'd be raped wholly by Sam, as he had already scarred my soul, raped me emotionally & mentally, reminding of my miserable past, I heard someone knocking.

Sam panicked, & I started shouting, as though the room is soundproof, some voice might reach out, & I might get saved!

Yes! I stated shouting for help, with all my might, but before I could even blurt out a single word, Sam held my neck in a tight grip, & strangled me. I thought I'd die!

'At least better then dying after being RAPED!' added my subconscious, & I agreed.

I was ready to die, I never feared death! It would take me to my Mamma!

I could see stars, & black dots, as my struggle slowed down, when angles came to save me!

'Angles do exist!' added my subconscious, but I was to lost in breathing, & in trauma to hear it.

Then I saw 'him', MY SAVIOR, he always comes to save me!

He was angry with me, yet he came? He was eying me up-&-down, after untying my numb hands, as I was lost in thanking God, & thinking of him.

Then Sam tried to attack Vivaan which he thankfully dodged, & injured Sam badly instead.

Then came Avi, & I tried to hide myself, but there was nothing around. 'He' covered me, but I felt terror surrounding me, like he would leave me again, with this monster, & I finally broke down, as he consoled me.

I found Sam giving me a deathly glare, & I got more scared! & Vivaan spoke in a deadly high tone, scaring the scared me me as well!

He took me, I don't know where, as my focus was only on the fact to not let him leave him! He slowly treated my wounds, & was about to go, but I stopped him, & I busted out again. All my control on my tears, everything was lost today.

Today my tears were flowing out like the dam of my patience, my control, all was broken in the flood of atrocities, & he

comforted me, without complaining!

He was about to go, as I felt terror gripping me again! I cooled down only when he stayed, with me, making my heart bloom! I don't know when did I sleep, comforted in his warm embrace, feeling safe...

Then I saw it all again... That night, those screams, those injuries, those tears, those marks, temporary on my body & on my soul, permanent!

& I woke up with a jerk, only to find Vivaan, concerned. I looked at him, & thought why is he still here? Isn't he disgusted after what happened today?

'Pity..' answered my subconscious, & my heart became heavier again.

I was reminded of his questions. Today he saw me in the worst way possible, what can be worst, thought I! Plus he deserves to know it all, I would tell him today, about that night, about that pain, about that disgust, about 'him', & about the darker side of me.

I know he will leave me after what happened tonight, so why not quench his thirst of that unanswered question as well? I'd seen him curious, impatient to know the answer, & I'll answer him, & now!

& I told him everything, everything that I hid from everyone, that I hide everyday, from me myself, everything, the darkest ones as well...

Yet I wasn't able to narrate a few things, darker, about those nights, a few sufferings, I shared with myself only, as I lived that night, all those days, again, in a moment, as I told him. He comforted me, but nothing helped, as I re-lived those all moments & wounds together, every moment!