Mute love

accidental

" Thank you, I " I heaved a breath because I was nervous to complete it
" I needed it " Obviously I did, coffee is really helpful for me right now cause I want to do anything but sleep right now.

She pointed at the couch looking at me, I guess she is asking if she can seat here or not " Sure "
I shifted myself towards the corner making space for her, she smiled before taking a seat. I don't know why but I regretted it. Why did I allow her to sit, she should go and sleep, it's ridiculous to admit I am getting attracted to her. And she sitting beside me, is a real torture for my heart.
And right now I only want to focus on my work.
I had a whole week to work on specific stuff but I literally spent the last two weeks making it up to my daughter. Yeah, it was the most difficult task for me and I couldn't do it until Anshika showed up in my house again.
To be honest, I would have spent the entire month making my daughter happy. She is my priority, and the lady sitting next to me is responsible for her happiness so solving her issues is one of my responsibilities. At least that's what I want myself to get convinced for, because I still don't want to admit I am betraying my first love. I won't.

" Do you need something?? " I asked, taking a glance at her direction, as I assumed she needed to say something when she was sitting here.but, She denied with a nod.
I proceeded with my work again, aware of the fact she was sitting beside me and it was difficult to focus.
Fifteen minutes has passed ,
I am trying.
And I am trying.
I am trying trying trying
again and again to focus
but I failed,
I finally decided on something. I inhaled a large amount of oxygen to gather confidence to tell her 'please leave' but all my confidence went in vain when I looked at her. I was lost, lost in her innocence.
I couldn't help, whenever I look at her I feel like nothing is more important than her, she must be the limelight only, I should only look at her.

The way she was staring at my laptop screen, her elbows dug on her knees, chin resting in between her palms. Her hair was tied in a loose ponytail , some of her hair strands were falling on her face.
Lips pressed in a thin line with a slight curve in the corner, her big doe eyes,though I only had one side view of them.
I hated it as much as I loved it, because I hated the fact I am loving it, I hated the fact that I am noting every small detail of hers. I shouldn't.
And I have no reason to fall for her but I have thousands of reasons not to.
First one is Soumya.
The second one is Adhya, I don't want to neglect her at all. And if I marry her, Adhya will have to live with a step mom, which I don't want at any cost, because I know how it feels.
The third one is my parents, I don't want to make her a part of my problematic life.
Fourth one is Anshika herself. I bought her here to help her. I don't want to make her think that I am just taking advantage of her situation. Her helplessness, because even if she is not feeling anything for me she would agree to marry me under the pressure , the same way she agreed to marry Yash, it was nothing but pressure.
Are you insane Aditya singh, you just wasted a good five minutes thinking about her, you have tons of work damn it. For God's sake.

I fake coughed to get her attention.

" Aren't you going to sleep? "
As I said this, she didn't reply, but she left.
What?? She left?? Why?? Did I say anything wrong? Is she angry??

Anshika pov

I flinched when I heard him coughing, I looked at him just to find him staring at me.
" Aren't you going to sleep? "
I gave him a nervous laugh before scratching my neck. I just can't say that I wanted to sit here because he was here, I want to stay near him, it feels good. Like his presence can make everything interesting. Even that boring laptop screen too.
I can't tell him that my mind is full of him. I want to see how hot and cute he looks while working. How attractive his fingers are when I see him typing.
I couldn't tell him so I decided to ignore it.
I immediately stood up and went straight to my room. I closed the door behind my back and leaned on it with a sigh.
How stupid? Why did I do this?? Does it make sense?? What he might be thinking? You are really stupid Anshika, seriously. There was no point asking him for a seat and then leaving without any word. Are you insane?
I huffed, I just need to take some rest. I am exhausted.
I made my way to bed, without making any voice I got in the blanket.
I smiled looking at the angelic face  , how cute she is.
Like are you okay Anshika?? You are falling for a man along with his daughter.
This father daughter duo is doing something to me, seriously.
I felt myself swimming in the air when she put her hand on my waist. I feel ticklish. I like it, no I love it.
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Next day
After completing my morning routine, I looked at the bed, there she is, cutie, I smiled before approaching her.
Removing the blanket from her body,I put my hand on her shoulder to shake her.
" Dadda, five minutes!! "
Oh, so he wakes her up everyday. I shook her for a bit more.
" No dadda, go away!! Lemme sleep!! "
I sat beside her sleeping figure and admired her for some time. This time I didn't try to wake her, I caressed her hair . A smile crept on my face.
It's not like I love kids, to be honest, I just like them from far, but when they get closer, I feel annoyed, but this girl, she is just something I can't resist, and trust me it's not a hyperbole but I will do everything for, literally everything which can make her happy.

She opened her eyes, and looked at me with her half open eyes.
I smiled.
She sat straight rubbing her eyes with her hand.
" Honey!! Good morning!! "
I ruffled her hair and kissed her forehead before getting off  from bed.
She spread her arms wide, asking me to lift her up. I am good at gestures and expressions.
I lifted her in my arms, she wrapped her arms around my neck. I love when she does it everytime, I feel ticklish when her small and soft arms touch my neck.
She kissed my cheek before snuggling her face in my shoulder " Take me to my room!! "
Woah , is that command or request. I chuckled because whatever it is, it's the cutest thing. Everything about her is cute, I just love her.
I took her to her room and she wanted to brush her teeths. I helped her to her washroom, and it was as cute as her.
Pretty small, with a Barbie theme, where the sink was at the level where she can see herself in the mirror. As she is too small . Hanger is also at a lower level where her hands can reach.

Like it was made for her only, only for her. Not only the bathroom but everything about her was made for her. Her whole room was so cute, though I have seen it so many times before but it never feels to amaze me. Walls painted all pink, a cute bed, cupboard, dresser and so many soft toys.
Her portrait on the wall behind the bed was just aww!!. She is just living a princess life where everything feels like a dream. A fairytale. And it's considerable, she is the daughter of Aditya singh. A CEO, rich and creative as hell.
Creative in the sense that he is owner of a furniture designer company, he is himself a furniture designer too.
And I am damn sure he is the one behind the design of this baby room.

After brushing her teeths , she told me she wanted to bathe and she just told me that she will do it herself and she is a grown up girl.

Tying up my hair in a bun I made my way towards the living room. I saw a woman in her forties, I have seen her so many times, she works here as a maid, she was cleaning the room with a vacuum cleaner.

It was early in the morning, and as she saw me coming from inside the house, she gave me a judgemental look, a typical indian auntys.
I gave her a smile which she didn't return to me.
Shrugging it off I made my way towards the kitchen, I could feel her stare on me all the way. But I decided to ignore it.

I walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge . I think I should cook something for them. I closed the door after taking out a water bottle for myself.
But then suddenly I heard bark, my soul left my body, what the fuck is he doing in kitchen, this fluffy person is only thing I hate about Aditya, why on the earth he needed to be a pet lover, why God?

I lowered my head to look at him, okay I am going to cry for sure, because he is literally too close.
My breathing rate rose, my heart started thumping in my chest , my chest was huffing up and down, only one way, run Anshika run, fast, faster, faster than anything.
Bottle slipped from my hand making a thud sound, I dashed out from there, running, running and running until I bumped on a hard wall.
It took me two seconds to realise it's not a wall, it's the hard and muscular chest of a man.
This man again, I forgot everything, literally everything when I inhale his Cologne, I can say he is here straight out from shower, he wasn't bare Or something, he was fully dressed but he wasn't wearing his coat and tie , top four buttons of his dark blue shirt are open revealing his muscular chest.
I gulped hard, I finally decided not to be more shameless, my eyes travelled to his face, holy crap!!
Is it sexy day, because today everything about him is sexy, first Cologne, then his half buttoned shirt and now water dripping on his face from his wet hairs. Yes his hairs are sexy too, wet.
I flinched after hearing another bark, I flinch so badly.
I fell on him, he fell on the floor.
We both ended up on floor.
I am on the top of him.
My lips touched his.
Fuck.
My eyes widen.
Can someone explain me what the fuck just happened??
Can you feel me right now?