Mute love

just ask her

" You did… what?? "
" You heard it!!! " I said with a straight face, she is so dramatic. Maybe this is what happens when you vibe with a younger person, or you can't vibe with anyone at all, I already mentioned only having her to talk is disaster.

It's 10 in the morning and I guess she just woke up judging by her messy hair bun,white oversized hoodie and black sweatpants.
She glared at me.
" You heard it!! " I repeated.
" No, I misheard it " She paused for five seconds " I heard kissed. ”

" Because I said kissed " I said, pressing my words.

" Jiju, please don't joke around me, you pissed me too much already,first of all I told you to come over today, I didn't said to early morning "

" This is not early morning, it's just you are too lazy "
She rolled her eyes " Whatever, now tell me what you wanted to talk about!! "

" I already said "
" You are joking right!! "
" Not at all "
" You didn't, stop fooling me!! "
" I did " I said it in a loud tone " I did kiss Anshika!! I kissed her and I also told her what I feel about her " I said in one breath and right now she believed me because she is taken back.
Her mouth hung open and she is looking at me with her wide eyes.

Okay now she is mad that I kissed another woman and cheated her sister. I guess.

" What feeling?? " She raised her hands in the air as a question " You never told me about this!! "
She scoffed before adding " Do you love her?? "

" No!! " I immediately shook my head in denial, only to receive a forced tight smile from her " Then do you like her?? "
" No! "
" Do you hate her?? "
" Why would I?? "
" Then what feelings?? "

" Listen, it's complicated like I like no no " I exhaled " I love her presence, I like to be around her , I want to talk to her, I feel like caring about her and she is in my head twenty four seven!! "

" And it's not complicated, simply that's what we call love, or crush at least!! " She raised an eyebrow.
" No it's not. "
" Then why did you kiss her!! "
" Because… . . " My throat dried.
" Was it a mistake?? "
" Not at all, I am just… .. "
"Wait, give me your phone ! ! " I knitted my brows in confusion " What!! "
" Just give it me, " Saying that she literally snatched my phone, she opened her phone too did something in my phone.
" Here?? " She handed me my phone, I looked at it , she had typed a number their.

" Ask for his appointment as soon as possible , trust me he is very well experienced psychiatrist!! "
I looked at her in disbelief " What the heck!! "
" You need it!! "
" Okay fine, I admit it "
" Admit what?? That you are mental? "
" Shut the fuck up!! " She pressed her lips in sarcasm.
" I mean I like her!! "
" I knew it but that doesn't matter sweetheart? " I gave her a look like what.
" Only thing matters is, does your honey likes you?? " I agree with her and that's the confusion.
" Now tell me , what did she said I mean how did she react when you kissed her, when you confessed to her "  She asked, fixing her loosely tied bun.
Thick layer of embarrassment coated in my skin, should I tell her that she pushed me. Is that rejection?
" Speak up, you are wasting my time?? "

I stayed silent.
" So I got it, you got rejected!! "
" No!! "
" Huh?? " I shut my mouth after noticing her raised eyebrow. I don't want a reply like "why so desperate lol"
" I mean, it's not like that. When I kissed she didn't stop me, instead she kissed me back but when I said those things she just pushed me and ran away!! "

She narrowed her eyes " Ohhh!! "
" What does that mean? "

" How do I know?? You are so dumb, there are lots of possibilities!! "
" Like what!! "
" Like… … . .  Maybe she likes you too but she doesn't like the fact you just kissed her out of nowhere? Or maybe she felt shy about what you said?? Or… . . " She paused
" Or?? "
" Or maybe she actually doesn't like you at all!! "
" But why??? "
" What do you mean by why?? " She threw a newspaper at me " Do you think you are a film star that every girl is dying for you and no one can reject you!! "
" When did I say that!! "
She just rolled her eyes " Ok fine na!! Tell me is that wrong to like her "
" It's not as wrong as putting your angre on someone else just because you can't accept the truth, it's not as wrong as letting your daughter suffer just because you can't move on and it's not as wrong as suppressing your current feelings just because you are too comfortable in convincing yourself that you will live with past!! "