Mute love

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I was walking towards her but immediately took one step back when she turned back.
I gulped as she flinched due to my sudden presence.

She sighed in relief but that relief was barely for three seconds, then I noticed her face getting nervous , damn it's more difficult than I thought.
I gulped. Even after Rashmi said that Anshika might like me but I need to confirm it from her.
I can't let her think that I am trying to take advantage of her helpless situation just because I am helping her.

She was about to leave again but this time I had stopped her.
Silence in the room was raising a thick tension in between though we had enough distance in between.
She didn't look at me, I won't force her to look.
I exhaled a good amount of carbon dioxide before taking one step back.

"I need to talk to you "

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Anshika

Okay, I am ready .
Here we go again, he will apologise as he might be feeling guilty after whatever he said to me.
And me being the most stupid person on the earth, ready to forgive him for kissing me and saying whatever because I understand, he is in love with his wife and I can't do anything about it nor I can force my feelings on him because I know how dirty forced love feels like.
I have been experiencing it from a long time.

" Anshika, I want to talk about yesterday. I am sorry for kissing you"
I sighed, as expected.
" It was wrong to do something like that without asking for your will. "
Is he serious? 
I immediately looked at him.
" But whatever I said wasn't a lie!! I mean it!! "

I stare at him, wondering what else I can do . I was too silent but I was facing him this time. Whatever he is saying it's too dreamy to be true.
" I am not going to pressurise you , you can put your opinion , but please consider my confession as the truth . I just want to know if you feel same for me ? Do you like me? "

I shake my head as no!!

Good to know he is asking me but the truth is that I don't like him.
My feelings for him are far beyond liking someone, and I can't even express it in words the way he did yesterday.

Even if I could speak I don't think I can ever name the things my heart has for him.

At every point he is way far better than Yash. Like they aren't even comparable. He is someone who did everything for me with a selfless motive, whenever I was in problem he was there before I can think about anyone.

In short he is the sunshine of my darkness. I have thousands of problems in my life but being with him can solve all of them.

And never in my life I thought he would say something like what he said to me yesterday .

But when I denied when he asked if I liked him or not, his expression was too obvious that he was off.
He pressed his lips in a thin line " Hmm!! " He let out a firm sigh.

" Considerable " He paused " Kind of fair… . "

He stepped back before turning around by his foots. He was about to leave when I grabbed sleeve of his blue shirt  .
He looked at me and this time my eyes started dripping.
I bit my lower lips " Hey, you are crying!! It's … . . " I cut him off by pressing my finger on his lips.
I inhaled to calm myself.
He looked at me, scanning my face he again shifted his eyes back to my eyes.
I am glad he didn't speak a word, it means he knows what I want, I want him to listen to me.

I placed my index finger on my heart , inhaled. I made a heart using my hands, inhaled. I pointed my finger towards him, exhaled.
That's what I could say " I love you!! "

In my possible way.
" What?? " He narrowed his eyes. " You love me?? " He chuckled softly, I nodded as yes.

" Really?? " He widened his eyes, I nodded again.
I saw him grinning, but it wasn't only grin, it was expressing his happiness along with his pain.
Pain for what?? I don't know.
He stepped towards me to close the distance between us, placing both of his hands on my cheeks, he wiped off tears in my eyes with his thumbs.
I placed my hands on the back of his hands.

We stared at each other for some time, and after a good minute we laughed a little at same time.

" Anshika… " He went silent after calling out my name, I don't know why but it feels so special to hear my name from his lips. It feels like heaven and I am someone special. It sounds melodious to my ears.

" I don't know what you saw in me that you are saying you love me but I will try my best so that you won't regret this, I will try my best not to disappoint you!! "
His words are more like a promise and I want to trust him so bad.
In fact I want to trust only him , no one else.

I smiled at him, he did too, he leaned closure to plant a kiss on my nose, I closed my eyes and next moment he pulled me in his embrace.

I placed my head on his chest before wrapping my arms around his waist.
"Baby, You in my arms , feels like heaven " He said, "I have heard this line before and it's not too difficult to remember where.
He is the one who said that to me before some days when he pulled me on his chest while sleeping on the couch.
But this time he is saying it in his senses. 
I smiled more like blushing.
Saying once again, this is too dreamy to be true.

He rested his chin on my head.
" I am sorry for yesterday!! " I almost laughed.
He has said that word so many times.

Someone please give him award for being King of Apologies

"Did you forgive me ? " I nodded yes at his question.

This is what I am comfortable with, silence, peace, respect.
It doesn't feel suffocated to me.
Seriously!! After meeting a monster like Yash, I never thought this kind of gentleman existed.

I was almost at the stage where I used to hate mens. But not anymore.

He parted away and smiled at me " So honey… " He inhaled, I giggled the way he called me honey, it reminded me of Adhya .
I stare at him, waiting for him to continue  " Would you like to change your title to Mom?? "

That would be a unique and indirect way to say Will you marry me!! 
But honey to mom… …  this line has my whole heart .
Of course!! I would love to. I would die just to live in the moment where she will call me mom.

I was still in his arms, he waiting for my response, but this beautiful moment didn't last for long.

Because we heard a painful cry, It's Adhya, the voice is coming from the living room.
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Aditya… … … . ..

I heard her crying loudly, no way did she ever cry like that.

I ran out of the kitchen with heavy footsteps, I didn't have time to get panicked. Anshika was also coming behind me.
But the moment I reached there, my legs froze, my body felt numb and my mind went blank.

She was crying a mess, and the cruel smirk on that shitty mouth of Yash is something I want to destroy right at this moment.

Hell no!!!!
This time he is actually playing with fire because this is the last day he will breathe.
No way he had the audacity to target my daughter.

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Guys, what do you think, should I change the poster?