Mute love

I apologise

Hello guys, first of all I am sorry for making you wait.
And then thank you so much for 40k reads.
I really never expected such response.
Love you all......

Enjoy....

I don't know if I am being childish and stupid but I couldn't control myself after what happened today. This was too much for me. 

I used to think he was helping me and I didn't know those things were giving me false hopes. 

But all hopes shattered, it would be pathetic if I stayed there after encountering his outburst. 

It's obvious that he himself doesn't want me to stay. 

I am mute, helpless, that doesn't mean I have no self respect. 

The time I left his house I didn't know where I would be going. 

And here I am, roaming on the streets, clueless about anything.

I don't have money with me, I should have grabbed my phone at least and it won't be a good idea to go back just for the phone. 

I am crying a mess, probably people might be thinking I am stupid. 

I could  go to Sara but I don't want to keep her in danger, I can't go to my uncle's place, he won't take me inside. I don't think he will. 

I literally don't know where I am. I have been walking for the past two hours, I am still walking. I know my legs will give up soon . 

What should I do? 

I am damn sure I won't go back to Aditya, I can't. 

Should I go back to Yash, should I tell him I am going to be the mother of his baby? 

Should I make the wrong choice being a weak woman?? 

That doesn't make sense. It was far too difficult for me to push him away from me, and when I am already free I am not going to make a new mistake by telling him about my pregnancy. 

I would rather die than push myself in hell. 

I was walking, walking and walking. And I suddenly fell down, ahhh that hurts. 

I looked back, oh it was a stone that I stumbled upon. 

So if that was my fault, I should be careful. 

I dusted my hands before taking a stand on my feet. 

As I said, my legs are giving up, 

I made my way towards the side of the road. Resting my back against the wall I closed my eyes . What are you doing Anshika?? What the hell are you doing? 

Practically your life has no motive. No motive means no meaning. 

It was gentle till the age of 17, but the moment Yash entered in my life, I was just a puppet of his hand. Nothing more. And the puppet is pregnant now. 

What the heck!! 

I really don't deserve to live!! 

Why don't you just die and end everything? You should have done this a long time ago. 

You don't have anything to do, you don't have dreams to live, you don't have love to cherish. Your life is not what people dream to live. 

Yes there is an asshole who claims to love you but how can he say that he loves you when you don't feel loved. 

I opened my eyes just to feel tears rolling down my cheeks. 

I am thinking trash. 

You need to calm down, absolutely not going to end your life just because you are not happy.