Mute love

Nauseous

I flinched after hearing another bark, I flinched so badly.
I fell on him, he fell on the floor.
We both ended up on the floor.
I am on the top of him.
My lips touched his.
Fuck.
My eyes widened.
Can someone explain me what the fuck just happened??
Can you feel me right now?

Our lips were attached for a good minute, nor did he push me nor I did. Because I was too freaked out to do that . My hands stilled on his cold bare chest. I can feel his heartbeat running like a rollercoaster.
Fuck butterfly, I am feeling elephants in my stomach. The burning sensation in my chest was too much for me to handle.
I literally forgot about everything, like everything.
I forgot about the maid who was working in the same room, I forgot about that bastard fluffy who is the reason that I ended up on him.
But I immediately backed off after hearing another bark.
After some seconds,
He stood up too, none of us dared to make eye contact.
But this dog, he is still barking and this time specially on me.

" Hey, fluffy, silent!!!!! " He demanded that I pick up that dog in his arms, and he caressed his hair for some time. '' Keep quiet!! "
Seems like he was really talking to him. Fluffy was quiet now, Aditya turned to me and I stepped back as a reflex action. I looked at his veiny hand which was resting on fluffy's back.
I am feeling really ridiculous right now to admit that, his hands are just turning me on.

He wasn't looking at me, he was avoiding it " I am sorry I just kept him free, don't worry I will just drop him off to Rashmi today "
Now his voice is doing the same.
That was the last sentence I heard before he left to his room with fluffy in his hands. I know that sorry wasn't for the kiss because I can sense he doesn't want to talk about it. Instead he was sorry for keeping dog freely.

He shouldn't be sorry, it's his place, he can do whatever he want . And now he is sending him off because of me, I feel sad because I have seen how much close they are.
And the reason is his wife, how much he loves her God, I hope I was her. I don't know why I am hoping such unrealistic things.
I just shrugged it off and turned my eyes towards the the lady who was probably staring at me from past five minutes.
She witnessed what happened but it doesn't justify the looks she is giving me. It's not like I just did it on purpose, but I can't change her mentality, I think she just made a judgement about me in her mind. I should ignore her.

After that accidental kiss, I just dashed out from there, and to be honest I am planning to avoid him and I am assuming he would do the same, because it was just an awkward moment which built thick tension between us.
If this would have happened in different consequences I don't think I would have been so much freaked out about it.
But currently, when I am helpless, he is offering shelter to me, I am getting attached to his daughter, getting attracted to him plus getting judged by society. All this things are happening at once. This is enough to trigger my overthinking .
Whole day I was been searching for apartment online. I don't think it's as easy as I imagined it to be .

" Honey!!!! "
" Honey!!!!! " I felt shake to my hand, oops I forgot what was she talking about.

I give her a curious smile " I am going to tell you "
Her cute voice take away my whole stress, everytime.
I widened my eyes in excitement.
" Wanna see Dadda's favorite place?? " My heart started racing as she mentioned him. And I was about to respond but she held my hand " Let's go!! "
Now I am curious I really want to know such things about him, that's what my heart commands me to do.
She wasn't running, I was just following her slow steps.
And we finally stopped in front of a room which was exactly beside his bedroom.
Though I have never entered his bedroom but I know it's his. Sometimes I feel curious about how his room looks like but I never wanted to invade his privacy.
" This is place where dadda loves to stay!! "
Oo, what is so special about it. Is it some kind of secret,lots of question striked in my mind.
" Oops honey, I think we need torch to go inside this room " She said as she pushed the door slightly with her small hands.
" There is no light here from some days,it's been a long dadda went inside "
She said, my dumbo we don't need torch, we just need switch the lights on. I wanted to say but she said " Wait I will bring torch from dadda's room " I didn't stop her. She disappeared from my sight, I turned my gaze to room again.
As I stepped inside, I made it open wide , lights of corridor entered inside the room, it didn't lighten up the space too much but dim lights were enough for me see what the room is about.