Saving Ally

Chapter 24 Part 2

Song to the side! Baby Don't Cut by b mike

--Drew Borden

I went back and fourth from Ally's room to mine five times today. The doctor said she should be waking up soon. I want her to wake up and I want to be the first person she sees.

Janet comes into the room with a big smile on her face. She's always so happy which actually makes me hate her. I haven't smiled since I woke up yesterday.

"Hey Drew it's 3 o'clock are you ready to go see Ally?" she asks. I nod, but I don't speak. I only got one hour of sleep last night, because I had a horrible nightmare about Ally. "Drew, you don't look okay. Are you sure you want to-"

"Yes," I say.

"Okay," she says, forcing another smile on her face. "Come on then."

I stand up and follow her out the door. The pain is gone. Either I took too many pain pills or I'm too numb to feel any pain. We walk silently down the hall together until we reach Ally's room. She opens the door for me and I walk in. I close the door behind me before walking over to Ally's still body, leaving Janet in the hallway.

I sit on Ally's bed and I take her hand like I always do. I've cried too many tears to cry again. I stare at Ally's emotionless pale face and I kiss her hand. "Ally, I'm right here. I'll always be here. I'm sorry again for passing out at your house. I wish I helped you."

I wait for her to respond. I wait for her to move, talk, do anything, but she just stays still.

"I have to tell you something," I choke out. "It's a secret that's tearing me apart right now. You aren't supposed to know, but I think you should have to right to know." I take a deep shaky breath before continuing. "You're being sent to a mental hospital. It's because they saw the cuts on your arms... and legs. They found a box in your room full of things. Razors... pills... and a rope."

Suddenly pain strikes my now not numb heart. It surges through my body faster than a cheetah runs. My body starts to shake and I grip Ally's hand. I close my eyes when I feel the tears starting to come again.

"Why Ally," I choke out as I feel the tears run down my cheeks. I look at Ally, wanting her to say something to me, but she stays silent and still. I wipe my tears and say, "There's this song. It's not the type of song that I would usually listen to, but I want you to listen to it. My dad snuck me in my phone and earbuds."

I pull out my phone and detangle my earbuds. I put one earbud in Ally's ear and the other in mine. I play the song called Baby Don't Cut. I rub Ally's scars the entire time the song plays. I whisper along with the song saying, "Baby don't cut. Baby don't cut. You can do anything just promise baby you won't cut."

I imagine Ally being the girl in the song. One cut...Two cuts...Three cuts...Four. The tears well up in my eyes again. I listened to this song last night after waking up at around 12am. It was playing on a loop. I cried too many times imagining Ally being that girl. My heart would break and I would cry to the end of eternity if that happened to her.

When the song is over I wrap the earbuds around my phone and I wipe my tears. "Ally, if you think nobody loves you then I'll tell you right now that I do. I love you, Ally."

I take Ally's hand once more and I kiss her forehead. I look at her cuts again. They're mostly on her lower arm away from her wrist. It's not fair. Nobody knows how horrible her life is. I can't believe I fell for those rumors. I can't believe I kissed Kate, the girl that was hurting Ally all this time. I can't believe I didn't know. Even worse, I can't believe I didn't stop it before.

I look back at Ally's face only to be surprised. Her big blue eyes stare into mine. She tries to speak, but the tube down her throat stops her. She starts to choke and I quickly jump into action. "Ally, stay still and breath out of your nose. I'm gonna get this tube out of your throat."