Saving Ally

Chapter 46

-- Ally Christian

Ever since I've come back home Drew has been getting more clingy. It's so adorable seeing him like this. Being a semi-muscular man that can have a cocky attitude and sarcastic comebacks, you would never think that he has a soft side. But this is more than soft. This is softer than rabbits or chinchillas. His eyes are always filled with compassion and love and his touch is always so gentle. He speaks so kind to me all the time and I don't know if I deserve this level of kindness. I know I should love it, but I also kind of want some of the old Drew back. The Drew that tells jokes and messes with me. The new Drew is too soft for his own good. I don't want him to get hurt.

I lay with his arms around my waist and my hand on his chest. His eyes are shut with his cheek lying softly against his pillow. It's hard for me to sleep when all I can do is think. I'm not worrying, I'm just simply thinking. I wonder what my Dad is doing right now. I imagine him sitting on a couch with a half empty bottle of whiskey on the counter. His chin is stubbled and his eyes looking tired as he watches old home videos. My mom is on the screen smiling at the camera, completely carefree of the world. I wonder how much he thinks about her. How much he misses her. How much it hurts him that he can't hold her in his arms at night.

I wonder if that's how Drew felt.

Did he miss me to the point where all he could do was think of me?

Could I even have that effect on someone?

Especially someone has strong and smart as Drew?

I look at Drew. His eyelids covering his eyes like a blanket and his lips relaxed and slightly parted. He breathes deeply, letting out a slow and quiet sigh. I can't help but touch his cheek and up to his hair. So soft and malleable. I wish I could stay like this forever. His warmth against my body and his arms protecting me. Our weekend consisted of mostly staying in bed cuddling and watching movies. He got me ice cream and blueberries and lots of smoothies. I felt like the queen of Drewtopia.

Sadly, we have to get up for school soon.

Looking out the window I can see the sun starting to rise. I close my eyes and pretend to sleep, waiting for his alarm to go off. I lie still for maybe about ten minutes until I hear it. "Let the bough break, let it come down crashing," the song plays from his phone. Sara Bareilles voice sounding like an angel as always. "Let the sun fade out to a dark sky. I can't say I'd even notice it was absent. 'Cause I could live by the light in your eyes."

I open my eyes just in time to see Drew's eyes flutter as they open. He looks at me and smiles, "Good morning," he croaks, his morning voice sounding sexier than ever. He makes me smile in response.

I sing quietly to him with Sara, "My whole heart. Will be yours forever. This is a beautiful start to a lifelong love letter."

He chuckles and kisses my forehead. As much as it was scary to say, I think I would be okay with Drew having me forver. But, as much as it sucks to say, this is high school. Not a fairytale.

-

Oh god the horrible sound of a school bell. I thought the screams to hell would be the worst sound in the world, but this beats it by a landslide and I haven't even heard it yet.

Drew holds my hand as we walk in to school, late. He said being late would be better because I wouldn't have to worry about anyone staring at me. What he didn't realize is that I would have to walk into my Calculus class and everyone would stare at me. And it'll be worse considering that I can't just walk away. I have to sit with staring and whispers for an entire hour.

We walk up to the math class, and he squeezes my hand and looks into my eyes. "It's going to be okay. I'll meet you right here after class ends."

Drew was truly a protector. I smiled back and nodded. I haven't said much to him this morning, and I know that he has realized that. I guess he thinks it's nerves from having to go back to school, but to be honest, I'm just afraid to tell Drew the truth.