I Fell Inlove With My Bestfriend

IFIWMB 57: Unwanted wedding

Ember's POV

♪ You and me, we made a vow

For better or for worse

Nandito kami ngayon ni JA sa isang resto bar malapit sa Palm Bay, Florida. Sam Smith is having a live show right now. Well actually, he’s a popular singer and the song he was singing right now is, too. But my point is, natatamaan ako sa bawat linya ng kanta.

We made a vow. A vow for better or for worse. Nawala na lang ba talaga ‘yon? Pain started to reflect through my eyes. It’s over now. Everything’s gone. All gone.

I can’t believe you let me down

But the proof’s in the way it hurts

For months on end I’ve had my doubts

Doubts if I would still see you, kiss you, squeeze you, hug you. The thought of being with you.

Denying every tear

I wish this would be over now

But I know that I still need you here

I still do. So much. And it still hurts so much. Just like what happened back when we were kids. It had never change.

You say I’m crazy

‘Cause you don’t think I know what you’ve done

But when you called me baby, I know I’m not the only one

I felt a tear dropped down my cheeks. I know I’m not the only one. I thought he trusted me. But I was wrong. He didn’t. He lied. He cheated. And it hurts me because my heart is still broken—because of that godamn jerk I’d always loved.

You’ve been so unavailable

Now sadly I know why

You we’re with her.

Your heart is so unobtainable

Even though, Lord knows you kept mine

You say I’m crazy

‘Cause you don’t think I know what you’ve done

But when you called me baby, I know I’m not the only one

I have loved you for many years

“Maybe I am just not enough.” I spat quietly. I didn’t sang it. It was a tiny whisper that I wish he would hear.

You’ve made me realize my deepest fear

By lying and tearing us up

I didn’t tore us apart. You’re the one who did, France. I sacrificed everything. Magmula pa man noon. Sana... Sana kung mahal mo talaga ako. Ikaw naman, Ikaw naman ang magsakripisyo para sa’kin.

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“Miss Ember, your preparations for the wedding and the wedding coordinators are mostly done.” My wedding checker said. Actually, siya lang yung taga-check kung tapos na ba yung ganito, ganyan.

“Well, that’s great!” I exclaimed excitedly. Showing I really was, but I wasn’t. Two days left before a week ends. Next month na yung wedding. Wala man lang ginagawa si France. Tsk. Stop thinking about that asshole Ember! Wala ka’ng makukuha do’n! Damn.

“Aren’t you going to try your wedding gown?” Obviously, ako yung pumili ng gown. Syempre kahit hindi ako ikakasal sa taong mahal ko, gusto ko rin naman na matupad yung wedding dream ko ‘no. This is a big deal for me. Speaking of...