Tired

44: Answer

May 23

"There's a party that the class is having and they are inviting everyone, are you going?" Bakugo said as he is sitting in Todoroki's bed. They are studying for their final coming up. The younger is sitting at his desk while the blond is laying on his bed.

"Maybe, when is it? Are you going?" Todoroki asked as he finally looks at Bakugo from his papers.

"Yeah I'm going, but I think you should definitely go. It would be a great way to say goodbye to everyone," Bakugo says, turning his head to face the boy. Todoroki pursed his lips.
"It's right before we graduate, the idiots said they'll tell me when but they haven't said anything, probably trying to get it together."

"..I'll go, I just have to figure out what to wear," Todoroki said as his eyes go back to the paper. He seems really focused on the paper. Bakugo can't help but admire him, seeing the little scrunch in his eyebrows, showing the focus in his eyes. Bakugo huffs out a laugh. It's quiet for a few moments before Bakugo brings it up again.

"Say, I know it's been a while but," Bakugo takes a moment to decided if he still wants to bring it up. Todoroki noticed the delay and glances at him from the corner of his eye.
"Did you ever figure out your reason? For yknow.." Todoroki is confused for a second before Bakugo makes a gesture. Oh, that right. He has been thinking about it. But he knows better than to just throw all his hard work away, might as well finish it. It's a heavy silence filling the room and Todoroki isn't looking at the blond. But he definitely is not focusing on the paper. Todoroki sighed.

"I..I'll have an answer by the end of today," Todoroki said. Bakugo couldn't tell if that was the truth or not.

"You don't have to rush to give me an answer, I can wait even after we graduate," Bakugo sat up and walked towards the boy.

"No, I want to give you an answer and I think I have one but I just..." Todoroki trails off and avoids the way Bakugo looks at him. Bakugo placed his hand on top of the boy's head.

"It's fine princess, you don't have to tell me anything right now, I was just curious," Bakugo mumbled as he ruffled his hair. Todoroki hums and doesn't realize how tense he is till his shoulders relax.

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Todoroki bolts up from his bed. He takes a moment to catch his breath, trying to fix his breathing once more. The nightmares has been constant lately. He doesn't know how much he can take of this.
He takes a deep breath and walked out of his room. He can not be in there another second. But once he takes a step out of his dorm. He realizes that he will be packing soon. He will move out of this dorm once he graduates but he will be moving in with Bakugo.

He takes one more glance at the room. But he can hear screams inside. He walks away. Todoroki doesn't know where he's going but he can't be in the same place in that room. He doesn't know why he remodel it so similar to his house. He walks inside the elevator but he catches his fingers hesitating over the buttons.

"..if you ever wake up in the middle of the night like that again and can't sleep, my door is always open,"

That's how Todoroki finds himself in front of Bakugo's dorm. This is so stupid. He should go back to bed. He shouldn't be disturbing Bakugo. He closes his eyes shut and tries to calm himself, his fist balled up. He knocks on the door gently. A second goes by and Todoroki is already starting to walk back to the elevator and curse himself for coming here before the door opens. It reveals a messy tired blond. Todoroki can feel his heart skip a beat. Bakugo has the sweater that Todoroki got him with some joggers on.

"I-uh I'm sorry for disturbing you, I was about to head back to the dorm," Todoroki mumbled and was still trying to retreat to the elevator.

"Shut the fuck up and get in," Bakugo's husky voice always seems to make his heart flutter. He loves that voice, it was so attractive. Todoroki awkwardly walks inside the dorm as Bakugo steps aside for him. He closes the door and Bakugo is already heading back to bed.

That's it? No questions asked.?

The blond is underneath the covers, but it's clear that he's made enough space for Todoroki who is still standing.
"Get in the bed," Bakugo demands, his eyes squinting. Todoroki pauses for a second before climbing in the bed. The blond is laying on his side, facing Todoroki who is laying the same way. Bakugo has his eyes closed and Todoroki doesn't know whether he should speak.
This will probably one of the last times that they sleep together in the dorms.

"Bakugo?" Todoroki whispered, trying to see if the blond is awake still. The older hums and squints his eyes open. Todoroki tries not to mentally gag as he prepares himself for the big talk.
"I..uh..I think I know why I want to become a hero.." Todoroki mumbles, he brings Bakugo's blanket up to his face and hide half his face. This catches the other's attention and he's trying to open his eyes fully.

"Go ahead," Bakugo encourages. Todoroki makes the mistake and look at the blond. Tired is written all over his face but he can see in his rose eyes that he truly wants to listen, despite Todoroki waking him up at god knows what time. He looks away. He can hear the sound of crying, the sound of reporters talking about his father thinking he's a good hero when they have no idea what it's like to be living with him. He takes a deep breath and tries to force himself to spit the words out.

"I want to become a better hero than my father, I don't want to turn out like him, I want to save people so they don't have to suffer the way.." Todoroki stops himself as he realizes he said something completely different than what he rehearsed in his head.

Bakugo doesn't need anymore words. He knows what he was gonna say. But it makes so much sense and it makes the blond feel so much better to hear this coming from Todoroki. He might be tired but that doesn't stop the fact that he can see Todoroki right now. He can see the way he woke up from whatever nightmare he had. He can see his reason to become a hero. He can see the hatred in his eyes but he can also see sadness in it.

"You're not like your father Sho, you save so many people even without being a Pro Hero. Please let me make this very clear for you, you will never turn out or be like your old man, ya hear?" Katsuki cups Shoto's right cheek. The boy flinches but doesn't move. He makes the boy look at him. Todoroki nods.
"And even if you can save everyone else from their suffering, I'll always be here to help you. Don't ever fucking hesitate to ask for help." Bakugo finishes and he can see the way his words affected Todoroki.

His face seems softer as he process his words. He looks as if he's about to cry. But nothing happens, instead Todoroki scooted closer to him. Bakugo doesn't hesitate to wrap his arms around the boy, making him feel safe in his arms. He can feel Shoto nuzzle his head into his chest, his heart is beating so fucking fast.

"Thank you Bakugo, for everything," Katsuki hears Todoroki whisper. He holds himself back from placing a kiss on his forehead.

"Your welcome Todoroki."

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