The Wallflower and The Werewolf (Isaac Lahey Teen Wolf)

Season 3B: Chapter 2Phoenix

Don't you let it kill you
Even when it hurts like hell
Oh, whatever tears you apart
Don't let it break your heart
Time takes time to heal it
You can't do it by yourself
Oh, whatever tears you apart
Don't let it break your heart

Isaac's POV

The moment we got to the McCall house, everything that had happened the past couple of days finally dawned on me. I become a mess of tears while sliding down the wall, hiding my face in my hands.

Both Melissa and Scott sit on each side of me.

"I failed her again. I knew she feared the images that caused her nightmares, but she always said she was managing it. I promised always to find her, but I wasn't there for her when she needed me the most."

"I f*cked this up so badly! Why? I was trying to protect Alexandra, and what I did was push her away and hurt her more. Did you notice Marco's eyes are blue? I mean, I practically handed her to a killer," I say, crying.

"Isaac, please drink this, you need to calm down," says Melissa, giving me a pill that I am sure is like a sedative or something.

"No, I want to feel this pain. I want to hurt. I deserve everything coming my way," I stand up and start pacing around the living room, and poor Melissa, who I can tell is exhausted, hasn't left my side. I love this lady; she is truly my adoptive mom.

"You know what, I am so sorry Melissa, please go to rest. You need to sleep; I will be OK."

"Kiddo, I am not sure if I can sleep. The past couple of days have been too much. But please know I am extremely thankful for your decision to help us. You kept that cellar from crumbling on top of us. Whatever is going on with Lexi, we all can help her. Come here," and she embraces me in a tight hug. I can't help it and start sobbing. I feel so defeated.

"Man, we need to talk!" says Scott. This will be awkward.

"Isaac, I have seen you interacting with Lexi and how you hang out with Allison. Deaton must have noticed something because he picked you as Allison's tether the night of the sacrifices.

I loved Allison and will never stop loving her completely, but if she is ready to move on, I can't do anything about it.

Just don't play with fire and decide who you genuinely care about because I would rip you apart if you hurt Allison, and it looks like if Marco doesn't hurt you, his wolf will destroy you if you hurt Lexi."

"I don't know what is happening, and I don't want you to think I am disloyal to you because our friendship means a lot to me, Scott.

Chris and Allison are always so in control and ready for battle that I feel I can do this werewolf thing with them.

Lexi is different; she is the peace for my human side, where I know I can be safe. I must be going insane."

"We are both exhausted and need to rest. I doubt any of us will be going to school tomorrow, but you need to decide soon because you don't want to complicate this even more."

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I am recovering, learning, and allowing myself to feel and process my emotions. It is f**king hard, but I owe it to myself. I don't want to be in the spot I was in two weeks ago.

Poor Jessi was so scared when she got the call. Danny and Marco didn't leave my side at the hospital while the doctors stabilized my body temperature and fixed my hand. After two nights there, I got to talk with Melissa and Jessica and asked them for help.

I was even willing to be admitted at Eichen House if needed. Melissa contacted a friend, and I am now in a Partial Hospitalization Program (PHP) in a nearby town. The administration team at school has been supportive, and Jessi asked me to only focus on me. I spend most of the day in individual and group therapy. At first, it was awkward, but now I am starting to feel better.