The Truth.

Chapter 16: A dip in darkness

Bellatrix POV

My eyes were open but I could see nothing. I felt as if I was floating in this dark abyss. The frail black tendrils that connected my mind to my sanity appeared to have snapped, leaving me floating in nothingness. I should feel worry, be scared and horrified but all I felt was absolutely nothing. No thought crossed my mind but the persistent prodding of something hitting the back of mind, as if I needed to remember an important memory but it escaped my grasp like smoke in the wind and I gave into the darkness once again; ignoring the alarm bells that screamed in my mind.

Flashback-Two days ago

Voices wrapping around my mind like a snake, hissing out sentences that echoed in my mind. I shut them out, barely, trying to focus on the task at hand. My pretty was lost somewhere, injured and alone; the connection between us seemed gone, it was there, but I could hardly feel it. Ours is hurt. We must find her. No matter what I tried, magic or otherwise; I had searched tirelessly for my pretty. You are not good enough. How can you expect a mate like her to love someone like you? 'SHUTUP' The voices recoiled and the magical backlash I released, they quietened down into silence.

Watching the Potter boy behind my illusion as he scurried away with the Weasley and his pathetic girl. A sudden flash of a vision filled my eyes of what could have been if my Hermione never saw the truth and it unfurled my rage like no other. My mind delving into chaos once again, the voice screaming to eliminate the threat to our mate despite there not being one. The tight tether I had on my mind was loosening the longer I was without muddy. Gritting my teeth and letting out a cackle as some insanity seeped through my loosening defence.

I could feel the nervousness and anxiety my fellow death eaters gave off and I couldn't help but feed off the fear they gave off. Despite the relaxed air that had come about since Hermione joined our ranks and relaxed our 'Lord', they were still afraid of their Lords greatest Death eater. I wore no mask like my fellow brothers and sisters because I loved that the last thing that my enemies would see was my grinning face. I could already feel my hunger for battle and quickly snapped out my command. "Surround them, harming jinxes only; if you have to knock them out then do so. This should be an easy task for you all."

With my command, they disappeared in black clouds of smoke towards the gang. I watched from afar, as they battled my four death eaters. Carrow took a nasty hex to the side but she pushed forward despite the pain she must be feeling. I couldn't help but feel some sort of pride. I have trained them well. They soon surrounded the two boys while Lavender ran off. This will not do.

Apparating over in front of her, seeing in glee the absolute terror on her face. She froze in fear as I bounded her with an Incarcerous. The ropes appearing and tightly bounding the helpless girl. Cackling as fear permitted the air as we apparatted back to the manor.

Knowing that the physic was down in the basement, my muddy planning ahead as always had all, but said that Luna to be down there to gather what they know and what their next plan was. Even though I was sure the powerful girl already knew with her sly smiles. I threw myself forward, making Lavender jump and the fear coiled around me. My own bloodlust growing with the amount of fear I could practically taste upon my tongue. Out the corner of my eyes, something flashed and my attention snapped towards the sword.

Fear filled me at the sight of the gleaming sword, how did they get this? The voice in my head got louder in anger. Disappointed. Must be punished. How dare they! My control on mind wavered for a moment but that all it needed before it pushed forward taking over and I was pushed into the depths of my own mind. Attacking my fellow death eaters when he muttered 'reckon it's mine now.' The last thing I hear, was my twisted voice harshly whispering "Let's have a chat, girl to girl."

Flashback end

I could feel a tug in the back of my mind, the tug got stronger and stronger and before I knew it I was being dragged through the memories that escaped just a moment before. Hissing out in pain as my head pulsed in a splitting headache before it was soothed with a wash of a spell. I could feel I surrounded by softness, and by someone.

My eyes snapped open in anger before the sweetest voice reached my ears. "Easy my love, you've been out a while." Black connecting with brown as I stared in awe that my soulmate was back. Our bond open and flowing freely. Feeling all the worry and love my muddy was feeling, immediately soothing her without a thought. Scanning her quickly for any injuries, I found none which was a huge amount of relief.

The voices in my mind quiet for the first time in weeks, I couldn't help the chaos in my mind as all the thoughts of the last two weeks assaulted my mind. I had tortured a girl. Many things I have done, but one line I never crossed was to maim a child. It was then I knew I had given into my insanity and that was something I wished to never do again. I needed to cure myself of this affliction, this horrible curse that was laid upon by my abusive father.

A wetness coated my cheeks and with horror I realised I was crying but all my pretty did was hold me closer as she read my chaotic thoughts. And for the first time in a while, I was weak and let the emotions wash over me as my lover held me tight as I sobbed.

A small taste of Bellatrix's POV. Hope you enjoyed!