Luv Is In The Rpw (On Going)

Chapter 15: father

"HAN!"

Nanlaki ang mata ko dahil sa nakita, this is not happening! I'm not seeing it right?!

Bahagya ding nahinto si papa or should I call him Mr. Montessori because he's didn't act as a father at all. 

Bahagyang naka-uwang ang labi nito at ang mata'y puno ng gulat. He's surprised seeing his daughter or maybe he didn't treat me as his daughter,here in the hospital! And dying!

Charot lang, I'm not dying. Pero baka nga,I slap my face in my mind. Shess! This mind of mine!

"G-ghaile?" Oh my goodness! Did he just call me in my name?! Gosh, it's gross! Eww!

How dare him to address me in my name, after  leaving his family?!!!!

I fvcking hate him! I HATE HIM!

"La, let's go." I didn't even give a damn on that nauseous man!

But before that I heard something that made my heart ache.

"Oh Tay,bakit ka pa pumunta dito?" Oh shIt! Did I hear it right? Kale just fvcking called my father 'TAY'

Oh my goodness,this is too much to take.

I almost fainted and I even felt myself a blanch.  He really has he's own family huh?

"Hey apo,what happened to you?" I heard my lola but the pain in my chest is unbearable,and I know anytime I will burst into a cry of calf!

He has his own family. That's right. Why I'm feeling this,eh alam ko naman 'yon noon pa?

I saw our car in the parking lot but I don't know why, instead of going inside the car I choose to run until I can't feel myself.

I wipe the tears in my cheeks,hindi ko man lang namalayan na umiiyak na pala ako habang tumatakbo. 

I looked around, I'm at the park. Teenagers are having a picnic with their friends and family.  Pero mas marami ang pamilyang nagsisiyahan. 

Oh to wake up everyday with a complete family. I bit my lower lip because of the thought. 

I remember that I run from hospital to here,my goodness! Baka papagalitan na naman ako.

Pero ayaw ko pa umuwi! I want to be alone and roam this peaceful park with a flooding thoughts in my mind.

Shess,I really hate to be a writer but at the same time I like it! It's my dream! But because of that,many thoughts have came suddenly in my mind when there's something bad that happens to me.

Or if I'm hurt, because I used to understand everyone around me why they do such a thing kahit na may nasasaktan sila.

I started to walk. 

Dad left us.  Or maybe mom. Mom left dad, because she can't bear seeing dad having an affair with another woman while she's carrying us.

Oh I even remember what my mom told me. When I was one month old,nalaman niyang may ibang babae si papa that's why she decided to moved out at maghanap ng trabaho.

While babysitting a four years old boy,one year old babyboy,and me. She multitask. And I even imagine that how cruel it is!

Imagine,kakapanganak palang niya sakin! And yet she babysit a two children plus me three!

That's too cruel! She's so nakakaawa,I even cry secretly when my mom gone out after she kwento that trail.

Imagine?! Yet pinatawad parin siya ni mama,at nagkabalikan sila kaya nabuo ang kapatid kong si Loan or Lats(that's what I always call her)

I saw a duyan that's why I decided na maupo muna to get some rest. Nakakapagod palang tumakbo,kahit wala namang naghahabol sakin! Eme lang!

I even said to myself noon that one day I will have the confidence to stand in front of my father saying that I success without him and I can lived without a father.

But yong nangyari kanina,I never thought of that! I mean, it's so mabilis and all the thing that I can do was to ran away.

Well, that's what I'm good at. Ang takbuhan lahat ng taong nanakit sa akin, nakakatakot kasi silang harapin.

All I know is, it's hard to trust anyone especially when the first person who broke your heart is your father.

DAys have passed at ayon na nga pasukan na. For the passed days, I've been doing the same routine everyday.

Singing,when the Almasync band said that they have a concert in this kind of place. Tatlong beses na kaming nakapag-concert na ako ang vocalist.

Pero we didn't really get along well with each other because of that incident in the hospital. Well,I know na wala silang alam but still I can't stop myself from distancing myself from them.

Especially Kale and Hale. For our second and third concert,Hale was there. He even cheers for me.

And for Zeck, we're still the same. Walang araw na hindi kami nagtatalo,nag-aasaran tapos nagkakapikonan. 

I even blocked him kasi he force me to do a sweet post,eh hindi nga ako marunong non. Tyaka I'm not other girls,na pupunuin ang timeline ng jowa nila sa sweet post tapos maghihiwalay din naman.

There's also one time na may nagpakilala sakin na kabit niya after that I confronted him and he deny pero sa gc namin palaging nagpaparinig na buti pa daw ang ibang babae marunong mag-isa love you at mag-tag ng sweet post sa kanya tapos ako daw na jowa niya parang wala man lang daw asukal sa katawan.

At yong reaction ko? Nag-post lang naman ako sa timeline ko ng picture ng tatlong magagandang babae at tinag ang jowa ko with caption na 'pumili ka na ng gusto mong maging kabit dyan,wag lang yong mukang pato kasi nakakainsulto'

And after that he laughed, kasi blinock daw siya nong babae. Sabi niya kasi hinihintay niya lang na ako daw gumawa ng paraan para tumigil si girl.

Immature talaga but hindi ko maipagkakaila na dahil don kaya minahal ko siya ng lubos.

I discovered that he's not perfect and that made me love him more.

I'm going to school na, I wore the uniform provided by the school, it's long sleeves with a gray coat and a stipe gray and white necktie pair with a long gray skirt,may medyas din pala na color white.

Ganito pala talaga kapag private school, provides lahat kapag schoolar ka. And I'm glad because of it,at least I help my mom.

So I'm here na at the front of school at papasok na sana ako sa loob when I unexpectedly saw him again.

My father,hinatid niya sila Kale at Hale. What a great start of the day,umaga palang sinasaktan na ako. 

I watch them three,how they're so sweet to each other. Father even tap their head,and then give them hugs.

Nakurot ko ang aking sarili. Han wag ka umiyak,I said to myself. Para hindi na ako masaktan pa,I need to run!

Kaagad akong pumasok sa loob ng school at nagulat ako ng pagpasok ko ay pinagtitinginan ako ng mga estudyante.

"Omg! Hindi ba siya yon!"

"Omg,ang ganda niya!"

"Ang ganda ng boses niya!"

"Sana pwede magpa-picture"

"Oh,hi beautiful!"

"Siya yong vocalist!"

"Oo nga!"

How did they know? I mean,wala naman sigurong cam nung nag-concert kami diba? Teka wala nga ba???!!!!

"HANNEY!"