Boy across the street (KSM/HHJ)

thirteen

Seungmin PoV

My eyelids opened and I had to blink a few times until I got used to the brightness of the room. I could faintly hear voices coming from the kitchen, which was why I sat up and let my feet touch the cold floor. With little motivation and a lot of tiredness, I managed to get up and go to the voices. 

I spotted my two best friends in the kitchen together, talking about something and having three bowls of cereal on the kitchen counter next to them. "Good morning," I said sleepily. They noticed me and Changbin quickly asked: "Are you feeling better? Are you still dizzy? Feeling sick?" 

"I'm fine, I'm just hungry," I replied, rubbing my eyes since I couldn't see properly yet. Minho pushed one of the cereals towards me and said, "We've been waiting for you so we can eat together." I smiled slightly and thanked them.

 "How about we play a few rounds of Mario Kard until we get bored?" I asked as we finished eating.

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We played for the whole day till it was dark outside and got very drunk because we had turned it into a drinking game. Maybe that wasn't the best idea. But we had alot of fun. I knew what I was doing, I was just dizzy and I spoke unclear. When I had just taken Changbin's joy stick away and held it up so he couldn't get it and win again, there was a knock on the door. 

I didn't know who it could be so I strolled out of the living room to the front door and opened it. When I realised it was my sister I stood up straighter and tried not to appear drunk. 

She hated alcohol.

 "Can I come in for a moment?" I nodded and explained to her quietly that Minho and Changbin were there to. 

When we came into the living room Minho was sitting on Changbin and they pressed their lips together. They were drunk, but I didn't think it would come to this. Besides, neither of them were into each other at all. The kiss was wild and I didn't really want to see my best friends making out. 

This was what alcohol in your veins could do to you.  

I hit both of them so that they would separate from each other and that they would realize that my sister was there. "What's happening here?" The oldest person in the room asked and I thought about the best answer. 

I looked over at the coffee table, beer, vodka, wine and many more alcoholic drinks were lying there. A few snacks that we had quickly bought in the supermarket and the pizza that we had ordered and only eaten four pieces were also there.

 "I-I don't knooow," I replied as I waved my hands in the air. "You're drunk, right?" she asked, raising her eyebrow. "No-" 

"Oh yes he is drunk. He doesn't get drunk easily though, since he is used to drinking," Changbin said giggling and I glared at him. If Changbin hadn't been drunk, he wouldn't have said that. She looked at my best friends and then at the coffee table. 

I could tell from her look how angry she was at me. She took one of the half-full bottles and held it in front of my face. "And what is that?! Seungmin, you're seventeen! What do you think you're doing?!" she shouted at me and I took a few steps backwards. 

She didn't get angry often but when she did she was scary. 

I started stuttering, "I-I'm sorry." Her eyes were filled with anger and stress. I didn't know why she was here but she certainly didn't want to see her younger brother getting drunk with his friends after our father died because of alcohol. "Use your brain once," she said and I swallowed, 

I could feel tears in my eyes. I've been really sensitive lately. "B-But-" 

"No buts," she threw the bottle to the side of her against the wall and it clattered loudly. "Do you want to end up like our father?!" 

I opened my eyes wide and shook my head strongly, I wanted to grab her arm, I wanted her to understand me but then she said: "I'm leaving now, until you get your shit together." My legs couldn't hold up anymore and I fell to the floor crying and sobbing. 

"I-I am so so sorry, please don't leave me too, I need a big sister." But she stopped listening and slammed the door.

Then she was gone and I lost another important person in my life.

And it was my own fault.

I had already forgotten that Minho and Changbin were there until I felt a hand on my back making circular movements. I heard Changbin getting up, picking up the shards of the broken glass bottle and throwing them away. I sobbed and couldn't stop. 

Why was everything so difficult, so complicated at that moment? 

"It's okay Seung, she just wants to protect you but doesn't know how." I saw out of the corner of my eye that we still had a beer, so I said, "Give me the last beer." My voice was shaking slightly and it hurt to speak. 

"I don't think that's a good idea," the older one said, but it felt like I needed it. "But I want to drink it now." 

"No Seungmin," he said and sat in front of me so that I couldn't reach for the table. But I pushed him away to take the bottle, which he quickly took away from me. He held it up and I tried to reach for it. 

We were still sitting on the floor so I tried to push him down and take the beer. I was closer to him than almost anyone before. "Please, Minho, please," I continued to cry. 

The alcohol in me was hurting, everything was hurting, I felt empty and so weak. "Please," I whispered again, my face streaked with tears, trying to take it out of his hand one last time. When I couldn't reach it, I collapsed on top of my best friend and hugged him, almost clinging to him. Minho also wrapped his arms around me and whispered in a comforting voice: "It's okay, you can cry. Everything will be fine." 

I tried to calm myself down and apologized twice for crying. "Don't apologize for crying," Minho said, rubbing my back. I started to feel embarrassed about being so weak so I pulled away from him and looked at Changbin who had been watching everything. 

"I'm sorry for what I said Seungmin." "It's okay. It's the alcohol." I wiped my tears in my hoodie and said that I was tired and wanted to sleep and that the two of them should go home. The two exchanged looks and Minho said: "We're staying here, you have an extra mattress right? I sleep on that and Changbin sleeps next to you." 

I simply nodded and went up to prepare the mattress, which I placed next to my bed. Without changing or brushing my teeth, I crawled into the edge of my bed and snuggled up in my blanket. I hugged my stuffed puppy, which I had had since birth.

 I didn't care what the other two did or talked about, I just wanted to disappear from this reality and sink into my dream.

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It's dramatic ik ~Yumi