Boy across the street (KSM/HHJ)

thirty-eight

Seungmin Pov

My fingers were throbbing and when I tried to move them again it hurt.

After Minho returned from the phone call and sat down next to me, I leaned my head on his shoulder and sighed.

It was all too much for me and I got really tired after we had been sitting in the waiting area for over two hours.

I just wanted to go home to my bed - no, on the mattress in Minho's room because I wouldn't be going home today, I didn't want to face the problem with Hyunjin.

"I think you misunderstood something Seung," Minho said as I closed my eyes and didn't want to open them again.

I didn't answer, why would he suddenly change his mind about Hyunjin. He was right all along that I was just being used and I should have never befriend Hyunjin.

My chest tightened and I felt the thought of my boyfriend not loving me eating me up inside. Like worms that ate my body from the inside starting with my stomach and continuing with my heart.

Like I was a corpse in a coffin where all the insects were eating my body and the only thing left was a gaunt skeleton.

When my name was finally called, a weight fell from my heart and I got up with Minho and his mother, we went to the doctor and he told me that I had broken my fingers and that I had to wear a cast for 8 weeks.

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As I lay in Minho's mattress on his floor, I turned my phone back on and saw the few messages I had received from Hyunjin.

Hyunjin💕🤍

Hey, I know you think I did something bad but let me explain
02:04pm

Seungmin pls answer my calls
02:05pm

Seungmin
03:07pm

Where are you?
03:09pm

Is your phone dead?
03:09pm

Minnie?
03:09pm

Okay i'll just wait until you answer me
03:15pm

Is it fun using peole like that?
09:56pm

I didn't use you
09:48pm

Well maybe you used her bcs I was to boring for you🤷🏻‍♂️
09:49pm

Can you listen to me? I wanst the one that kissed her. SHE kissed me without me wanting it
09:50pm

Why didn't you tell me then?
09:50pm

I wanted to tell you but you weren't home
09:51pm

Yeah bcs I didn't want to face you
09:52pm

As I said I didn't kiss her.
09:52pm

You're a man full of lies Hyunjin.
09:53pm

Bro, I thought I was a drama queen but wow rn you are more of a drama queen than I ever was
09:53pm

Did you just bro me?
09:53pm

Yes I did bcs u are getting on my nerves. You can't even listen to me
09:53pm

I dont want to listen to your bullshit
09:53pm

It's not bullshit its the truth
09:54pm

What if I trust you again and you do something like that again? I would wish you to be beaten up my Changbin or someome like that
09:54pm

Seungmin you did the same but worse, cause I was kissed by her but you made out with a random dude while you were drunk. Btw being drunk is no fucking excuse
09:54pm

We weren't even a couple back then, I could have had sex with him and it shouldn't have mattered to you!
09:54pm

It would have mattered to me, we did the things couples would do. So when you told me what had happened my heart shattered but I tried to make you feel less guilty even tho you didn't love me as much as I did, bcs if you would've felt the same way I did at that moment you wouldn't have done that.
09:56pm

Why are you trying to make me feel guilty now?
09:57pm

I just needed to talk abt it one day its heaving my chest since then
09:57pm

I hate you.
09:57pm

Hating and loving are feelings that are very close to each other🫶🏻
09:57pm

Stfu
09:57pm

I hope you have a good time alone :)
09:58pm

~

My heart shattered into a thousand fragments. I knew I was acting like an asshole but he didn't have to bring up the drunk kissing thing.

Left or right I turned from one side to the other, adjusted my head pillow and tried to snuggle up in the blanket but I couldn't fall asleep. I used to often sleep on the mattress next to Minho but this time it felt so hard so uncomfortable so lonely.

My eyes closed but opened again, I felt uncomfortable in my own skin, my fingers felt weird and the cast was pressing against my skin.

Even though I would like to clarify everything with Hyunjin and fall asleep in his arms, I knew that if I texted to him again now, the anger would trump me and I would say stupid things.

I slowly got up and crawled into Minho's bed under his covers and snuggled up to him. "Are you crying?"

"No," I answered quietly and continued: "I just need comfort."

He stroked my hair and said, "Wake me up if something's wrong, okay? And don't think about it too much, try it," he said and I nodded while closing my eyes.

And soon I fell asleep.

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I'm sorry its a bit boring :( ~yumi