Boy across the street (KSM/HHJ)

twenty-two

Seungmin PoV

Why was school so stressful? Why was school twice as hard when one of your best friends wouldn't talk to you? Why was school, school?

When I came out of the chemistry room I spotted Changbin. Finally he was back. I don't know what I would do without him.

I wanted to hug him and never let go but before I could do that he started talking: "What the hell happened to you and Min?" No hello, no I'm fine again, none of that. He immediately confronted me about it.

Annoyed, I answered him: "He was a huge asshole again and I don't want to talk to him, nor does he."

"Min didn't tell me what happened... by the way, your hair looks good." I went to my locker after thanking him briefly and coldly.

The older one followed me. "Tell me what happened Seungmin," he spoke and I gave up on not wanting to tell him.

He was too stubborn and annoying when he wanted to know something, which is why I took him with me to the stairs where the two of them often hung out and smoked.

I started talking: "Minho decided to visit me without telling me, which is totally fine with me... but Hyunjin was there because he needs a place to stay, doesn't matter why and Minho completely freaked out. He wanted to punch Hyunjin. I prevented that and then yelled at Minho and slapped him because I simply had no control over myself anymore. I was so angry at him."

Changbin listened carefully and nodded in understanding: "I can understand that you were angry, I would be too. Still, you have to talk to Minho, it would be best if you let him know that you have feelings for Hyunjin." I sighed and sat on the floor leaning against the wall. 

Changbin was right, what I felt for Hyunjin was different than all the other feelings I felt. Still, for some inexplicable reason, I couldn't admit it to myself. 

"I don't think he'll understand." The older one sat down across from me and shook his head. 

"I think he'll understand, he knows what it's like to be in love even if his first crush hurt him a lot. He'll understand," he said and I started to pull on my skin next to my nail, which suddenly burned and hurt a lot. It started to bleed slightly so I left it alone and looked at Changbin again.

 Minho and he never told much about the time when I wasn't friends with them, but I knew that Changbin had been through everything with Minho and was always there for him, just like he is for the two of us now.

When Minho was heartbroken he must have helped him alot.

A sigh escaped my lips and I said quietly, "I'll talk to him."

"Good. But please don't yell at each other." 

"If he starts, I'll yell back." The other stood up and asked, "Would you like me to come with you?" I thought for a moment and answered with a quiet yes. 

"Let's talk to him after school." I nodded and he held out his hand to help me up.

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I told Hyunjin that he should go ahead and not wait for me. He didn't ask any questions and went home.

I waited with Changbin until Minho also came out of the school grounds. When he saw us he wanted to walk past us and ignore us but I followed him a little until he stopped because I started to speak: "We need to talk Minho."

"We have to?" he said, not stopping or turning around. "Don't be so stubborn," I said, trying to stay calm. "Okay, what do you want?!" He said with an aggressive tone and turned to look at me.

Changbin stood next to me and looked at Minho with warning eyes. As if he wanted to say that the eldest should pull himself together. "I want you to listen to me, okay? You don't have to answer me, you don't have to say anything. You can just go and text me, call me or just keep ignoring me but please listen to me," I said and in the next moment Minho sighed. 

He looked at me and said, "Okay, I'll listen." 

And then I started to speak no longer from my mind but from my heart: "First of all, I'm sorry that I slapped you. Everything just overwhelmed me, even though I know that it's not an apology and I feel really bad about it but you deserved it a little... I don't know why you hate Hyunjin so much but he's not a bad person. He is really caring and I feel comfortable about him..." 

I stopped for a moment, I didn't know how to explain my feelings. He looked at me still with an annoyed expression and watched me how I struggled to say something. 

"Min, I fucking fell for him, I like him in a way I never liked someone before. Changbin made me realize that I've had these feelings for Hyunjin for a while, longer than I thought. I hope you can support me, be there for me. I would do the same for you even if I didn't like that person. Minho, I don't want to lose you as a best friend because I love a person you don't like."

The older one looked me up and down, shook his head and walked away from us without saying a word. In the distance I could see him lighting a cigarette and I sighed. 

"I told you he won't change his mind," I said and turned to Changbin. "Maybe he just needs time to think about it." 

I sighed again. 

"Changbin, I'm just afraid that this will destroy our friendship," I said and looked at the ground. The older one pulled me into a hug, a long lasting hug. 

A hug that made me feel like my tears were about to burst.

"That won't happen, don't worry. I'll talk to him, okay? Maybe he'll open up to me," he whispered and when we broke away from the hug he ran after our best friend.

I stood there for a moment and watched them go until they turned a corner and I was alone. Now I would go home and be alone too... Alone with Hyunjin, maybe he could cheer me up.

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Hey, sorry for not uploading anything I was a bit exhausted not felling well and stuff. I feel a bit better now I just needed some time for myself ig. Not happy with the chapter still hope u enjoyed it tho. ~Yumi